sorry to say, but i'm not thrilled to be here.
i've been wondering how long it would take me to own the fact that i belong here. i've been lurking for weeks, debating if i should post or not.
but, on such an emotional day as today, i have decided to post.
my husband, to the best of my knowledge and detective work, is carrying on an EA with a woman he has known since high school. From the evidence i have found, they slept together back in 2001 and have been bare min - emailing consistently to present day.
also, my husband has posted ads on online friend finder websites soliciting perverted things with women and homosexual activities.
i confronted him several times before - to which he plead for forgiveness and promised he would stop. he denied acting out on any of it, that it was only for the thrill. he also denied any PA with the OW.
but, a new ad showed up this week, and i found more emails to/from the OW. he keeps a private email account that he won't give me the password to-but i was able to get into anyway. he promised he wouldn't talk to her anymore back in 2001, but then here i found three recent emails.
i'm just to emotionally crushed and scared and tired. i'm so tired of hearing him lie to me on a daily basis. i'm so tired of not trusting anything he says. i'm so tired of four years of betrayal.
so i guess my question is - why should i plan A?
we are going on his third attempt at forgiveness here. (btw - he doesn't know yet that i know about the recent emails and most recent online sex ad)
why should i forgive him if he defiantly refuses counselling and obviously won't stop these destructive behaviors???
why doesn't he love me enough to stop?
with two beautiful children and a devoted wife, any man would love to have us.
until he brought home a disease.
what a selfish pig he is to degrade his family in such a way. what a weak little boy.
this is NOT the man i married.
