I haven't posted any new topics on the board lately but I have been replying to others. Things are going well with my H and I so I haven't felt the need to talk about any 'issues' lately. Believe it or not but replying to others with encouragement, etc. is giving me strength in my own relationship. It gives me a chance to look at the good in my marriage and somehow try and help others with similar experiences. I won't go as far as to say that I am done needing advice and support - NO WAY!! Maybe it is the Christmas time that is helping to make things good for us. I am just enjoying it. Thoughts of the OM cross my mind lots and I do wonder what he is up to for the holidays. I also wonder if he is thinking about me too. He's just on my mind but I expect that (and my H is being really understanding). The addiction and withdrawl is really hard but it is going okay (not great, just okay).<P>For those of you who are wondering if I am feeling stronger - today is a better day. I can't say that next week will be as good though. I am still on holidays and my H is going away for a few days on a 'guys trip away to the mountains'. It was actually supposed to be a guy's trip in the beginning but everyone backed out accept my H. So instead we planned to go away just the two of us to the same place. Now some of the guys can go now so I am stuck at home. I am not as bitter as I may sound. I do enjoy being home alone but I'd rather him go away when I am feeling strong and confident. Don't worry - there is no chance that I will see the OM. That is not possible. I will just be alone with my thoughts. I can guarantee that I will be spending a lot of time here reading, posting, etc. because that always makes me feel better.<P>I'll keep the updates going.<BR>Take Care and if I don't come back to the board before the 25th - have a Merry Christmas!!!<BR>See ya,<BR>Brynn
