Well, <P>Christmas has come and gone. The children got really spoiled this year. I don't know what I am going to do with their gifts. I'll just keep them in boxes and store them away for a while.<P>My H/SANTA, got my H and I new wedding rings, Since my H ring got lost to wire cutters about a month ago, and mine got lost to a good pitching arm awhile ago. I take this to mean that we are trying to start over. Eventhough we have been together over seven years, we have been through alot.<P>At age 19, in collage on my own, paying for collage on my own and working full time, I realized that I was pregnant with my first child. The dicision was very hard. What was I going to do. I decided to keep the baby, although I don't think I could every go through with any other way. My h and I were only together for about 2months or less. We did go to elementry school to gether and had classed together but I didn't see my h for about 7 years he had moved away and I met him through one of his friends at collage. <P>We dicided not to get married just because of the baby.. then about one month later he proposed to me stating " I love you and I want to spent the rest of my life with you, I don't want this baby to be born out of wedlock. I said yes and 3 mos preg and planning a full on wedding in 5 months was stressful.<P>Today we have a second child. starting young for the first and totally planning the second. I would never trade this life for any thing. We have ups and down. But like my mother told me. If there were no ups and downs, there would not be anything to be proud of achieving.<P>I believe for my H and I, we never really got to know eachother as a couple. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have children? We are now going to find out and really get to know eachother. Start our relationship over again.<P>H went to work today. I still doubt. this weekend he was checking his cell phone for messages on xmas. All I thought was, is she going to call? I caught myself, I really don't know if there is a she. and to day when he went to work all I do is worry. But the difference is he knows how I feel.<P>wish us luck......<P>I love all of you guys......<P>Thanks <BR>Christine

I m happy that you two spent christmas together- good luck on your discovery.

A new beginning sounds great, Christine. <P>The best of luck and life to both of you.<P>Lori

I wish you guys the very best. Take it one day at a time. I can't wait until both myself and H are working on marriage. Thanks for giving me a little hope as well!<P>------------------<BR>"If you can learn from the mistakes of others, you won't have to make them youself."<P>