Married 14 years, together 22.
First marriage for both, my best friend I thought...no kids..He arrives
home from trip overseas for work and I find after he came home, a condom box which holds 3 condoms and one is missing. How can I explain my pain, heartache, I am a broken person and this has shook me to my core.

I have no one to talk to. How can I talk to a friend ? I am so humiliated. I have made an appt. with a therapist.
Of course, he denied anything happened, went to strip club with co workers, they passed these condoms out tossing them around - laughting - but "no one did anything" - well where is the missing one? He told me he does NOT want out of this marriage and would do whatever it takes to make it work. I am so scared and feel so dead inside. And yes, am making appt with OBGYN to get tested for various diseases..oh my GOD -
Last night I went to sleep hoping I would not wake up.

OK, Calm down, you just found a friend here and there are lots of us that will help you. I suggest you go to the general quesions thread and start asking questions.

Don't believe what he tells you, believe what you see.

You're not alone.
Keith

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> OK, Calm down, you just found a friend here and there are lots of us that will help you.
</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">True. You will find alot of companionship here to help you through.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Don't believe what he tells you, believe what you see.
</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Also true.
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</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> You're not alone.</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Three for three...

Everyone here to some degree or other had experienced the same pain you are hiting. There are some things you need to start doing right away before any major efforts in your home and marriage.

Look at it as providence that you have discovered this place.

Welcome to MB!

Recovery starts with honesty. You CAN recover (see the link in my signature line), but not if he continues to lie to you.