In Oct. 2000, I found out that my boyfriend had an affair with someone in another state. Her sister in law called the house to let me know this a year later and said I should call OW to speak to her. OW says she was pregnant and about to deliver his child in two months - I confronted hima nd then he told me. Since then we have been trying to work things out, reading books, speaking about going to counseling, etc. I am very unsettled to not know whether she is in fact pregnant with his child or even had a child with him (I always thaought I would be bearing our first child together). He says there's no way she is pregnant. Who cares? She says she has his child, she wants to not hear from him - cased closed but it isn't for me b/c I don't have closure. Should we go down there to find out what's going on? Should he go? Should we send someone to request a blood test? I feel like I am the only one trying to make this relationship work ( we are going on 6 sixs together - 4 of those years we have lived togehter - he wants to marry me and have children with me - but that cannot occur unless we deal with this matter first - we will never be able to have a healthy and happy marriage otherwise. I don't even want to talk marriage and children - I want to figure out what's up with OW? I feel I am the only one stressing this matter - he wants to just move on and get past it. Where I am at right now: I have expressed to him that I still love him but I am not in love with him - there is no joy for me anymore - I am worried all the time and unhappy. I have decided that it will be best for me to move out of our apt and have a relationship with me - learn to love me and if we are meant to be it will be otherwise it's a learning experince for both of us -<BR>but I don't really want to leave - what should I do - I am so confused - I am angry. I have been betrayed. I become angry with myself - all my life I have cheated in all my realtionships except with him - I felt this was different and I vowed to be faithful to him - now look what happened?<BR>I need feedback quick.<BR>Thanks<BR>