I can't believe it's gone on this long. Re-trenched in Plan A after a setback last week. Had 1 week of tremendous improvement prior to that. The best side of W since pre-A, then I LB'ed because of proof of continuing contact with OM. Why couldn't I control myself better? This week has been better but I still suspect contact. It almost seems like she's waiting for me to do a certain thing or perhaps, just say the right thing...and she'll end it? <P>My love for her hasn't gotten to the Plan B low so on I plod. I can see the types of needs the OM has gotten good at filling. It is SO hard to keep the energy up to try to meet those needs, while keeping the household duties, etc. Maybe I could use a few days off to really regroup, refocus and move forward. <P>IFS/MM