Dear (H),<P>It is with great difficulty and remorse that I write this letter. I am truly sad to see what has become of our marriage. The decision I now make is necessary to save what love I have left for you.<BR>I have made many mistakes in the past that I would change in a heart beat, but know that I cannot. I know that my weight was a huge issue and the fact that I put the children first. You deserved much more of my attention.<BR>I realize those errors in the past and have grown and learned a valuable lesson. I can only say that they will never happen again.<BR>Words cannot express how sorry I am for my part for helping create and sustain an environment that has made your affair possible and allowed it to continue. I too had an responsibility to meet your most important needs; and by lacking the right judgment, I did little to aid efforts in building and growing our love for each other. The importance of your needs, I lost sight of. Now I know that I am more then able to not only meet those needs, but be lovingly enthusiastic in doing do.<BR>I have had the most difficult time in the last 3 months. Their has been pain and hurt in the time spent learning to mend my failings. The pain and hurt, even though causing me great anguish, has let me know what stregnth I really possess. The duel nature and stregnth makes a conflict that now leads me to an inescapable conclusion. This conclusion, I will hold firm to, as I have learned my stregnth will only be in my resolve.<BR>Spouse, the conclusion that I write of, is that...Until you end your relationship with (OW), I can no longer see you or in anyway communicate with you! The complete pain has become an unhealthy part of my learning to be the best possible wife for the one I love. <BR>(r) this decision I make,I do not make lightly. It is not to punish you. I is simply meant as a way to no longer drain the love I have for you during the time of your affair.<BR>I hope that you will see that I love you,but I am not naive, and I realize that you may never accept that gift of love again.<BR>As soon as you can fully, permanently and unconditionally seperate for the other women, and are willing to commit to measures to verify that seperation, I am willing to whatever it takes to start a fully recovery of our marriage.<BR>I the best interest of those involved, I will expect requirements to be upheld..to minimize impact to the children..and offer acceptable and extraordinary visitation rights..eliminate any negative explanations to family and friends.<BR>In emergency situations Deb will call you. When you call the children it must be no earlier then 7:30pm and no later then 8 :pm. Deb will be our go between.<BR>I want us, not me alone and not you alone, but us to rebuild our marriage. We need to build a new lifestyle. Everything can be done to make us both happy. I know it is possible for our marriage to flourish, and have no more seperation in body or spirit. I want to be a best friend and a wife that any man would be proud of to have as a spouse.<BR>-I want to grow old with you.<BR>-I want to be your wife,your friend,your lover and your confidant.<BR>-I love you more then life itself when we were together and I continue to do so as I write this.<BR>As soon as you are willing to seperate completely from your "friendship" with OW, I will be willing to discuss our future together.<BR>Your loving spouse, with all my soul and love,<BR>Lostinny<P>THANKS FOR THE LETTER HOPE THIS ONE IS BETTER.<P><p>[This message has been edited by Lostinny (edited June 09, 2001).]
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