I did the unthinkable, big time LB, back to square one. I found out more lies that my W was telling me, and i let it get to me. I need to print out WATs quick start guide and tape it to my forehead.<p>I cant believe it, its almost like an olympic event to try and control my emotions right now.
Big argument last nite with W and OM on the phone, i am weak.<p>Letter to W, almost seems more like Plan B
------------------------------------------------<p>WS,<p> <p>With all that has happened and the continued betrayal of trust I believe that it is in both of our interests to stop communicating. I can no longer tolerate the lies and the disrespect that you have shown me, and the same goes the other way, I have been very disrespectful towards you and OM, this is not a solution that I find attractive. I wish to find a common ground for us to be able to finish working out the issues we have at hand. I know what a great mother you are, and S knows it too, your interference by being with OM has robbed me of the time S and I could have spent together, this makes me very unhappy. Its unfortunate that this arrangement has to come to this point, I thought you really wanted to be friends at the very least. Your actions have shown otherwise, I do believe that in the future it may not be that difficult for us to become friends, just right now I have no desire to be angry. <p> <p>I am letting things go, and regardless of whether you stay with OM for the rest of your life or not its your choice. I hope that you would consider asking a 3rd party such as seeing a councilor for advice and consultation, if you would be willing I will make arrangements for you at no cost to you. I hope that you will see this as my way of saying I am sorry and I no longer wish to upset you or disrupt your life. <p> <p>I wish that this were easier, but I do still love you and its painful to see what your doing, not just to me but to S as well. I hope you find all your dreams being fulfilled in this new relationship, as I have always wanted you to be happy and that will not change.<p> <p>Love always<p>me<p>
sent this to OM too, just so maybe he would see what he is really doing. Probablly wont make a diffrence but who knows. . . .

Did you send it already, email or post? I would not encourage her so much with om, but such is life if it is already sent. It at least shows your true feelings, and is a kind letter... did it say anything about wanting to work things out in the marriage, if she does... that has really gotten me a long way with my H, we are trying to work some things out... but it has been 5 months since all this started. In the beginning he was insane and so was I.<p>Hugs, HONEY

Honey, your awesome! thanks for your feedback, yes I did send it already. One other thing i forgot to add was that i did call her back and appolgize for my rude behavior, to which she said thank you. She sounded pretty wierded out on the phone last nite even before we began to argue. I do not know if it was due to the fact that I sent her OM an email saying that I was going to tell his parents about what was really going on, (he is 20 and lives at home). So it seems like we can still talk and stuff but did you guys have times like this slipping back to square one? now things seem alot more hopeless than before. I have drafted a Plan A letter which can be found here if you are interested, maybe even let me know if I should delete some things or not. Thanks for cheerin me up a bit! [img]images/icons/smile.gif" border="0[/img]<p>[ February 06, 2002: Message edited by: digitalslavery ]</p>