Hi everyone. I usually post in JFO. See my profile below for the summary. H is off to Bangkok this Friday night for a holiday. He may see OW - very likely. Has not admitted to PA, I don't know what to believe. It has been a tough and I'm really struggling with him going there. <p>I've told him I support time on his own, etc, but I wish I was going or that he had chosen a different destination. He said maybe one day we can go together. I asked if I can see him off on Friday he agreed - I don't want to be a weeping mess - he wont want to come back to that! How do I handle this.<p>I'm really hurting, I don't want him to go, but there's not a thing I can do to stop him. He has finally been honest with me about finances and when he's leaving and coming home and said he will call, but there's been so many lies, and if he sees her, I know it will all change. I feel as though my marriage rest on this trip - its a lot of pressure.<p>I'm going on a holiday to Cairns (I'm an Aussie), then to see a friend in Queensland. I just need a little support at this time. Espoir has suggested that the trip may not be all his fantasies rolled into one. I hope your right espoir. Although as I friend I want him to be safe and happy, the selfish frightened side of me wants it to be a total disaster!<p>Some advice about handling this would be greatly appreciated as would any thing that could make me feel better - even if its lies.
[img]images/icons/frown.gif" border="0[/img] <p>I also had to call MIL re my dog (they are looking after him). Sensed tension. How do I handle this? I doubt H has told them everything about our problems (meaning the A). I'm hurting even more now. If H decides to work on our marriage and we do get back together properly how do you survive it? My dad hates H now, friends don't like him think I'm mad, now it looks like his family will start. The thing is I needed to tell my dad/friends when it all happened I was such a mess. I don't know what I'm doing SAA dosen't seem to cover this.<p>[ March 19, 2002: Message edited by: Seahorse ]</p>
