<blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr>Originally posted by Leilana:
<strong>But God bless you for seeing the writing on the wall and taking the right steps. You've done everything to the best of your ability, I don't think I can commend you enough for all that you've done and been thru for the sake of your marriage.</strong><hr></blockquote><p>Thank you, but I think I'm so messed up for not feeling anger or bitterness. I have it, I just don't know how to express it in a healthy way. <p>It bothers me that I can't easily let go of unhealthy relationships, that I continue for so long wasting my life.<p>I was watching Frasier last week and he was being visited by spirits of his mother and a few of his past girlfriends. They were pointing out to him his problem with relationships and then it it him, he said "I'm alone because I'm afraid of being alone!" That is my H!<p>Thank you, Leilana!

Free2BMe,<p>This is just my oppinion, I think you should limit contact as much as you can to help you to move on. H might resist that and try to mark his teritory and belonging.<p>I love my W soo much and I know I need to really to shut her down of all contact, not to punish her or anything but it is for me to move on. I need to no contact for long time until I could heal my self.

RH,<p>I know I need a strict no contact. He stopped by last night after he dropped his boys to their mom's and my boys were with their dad. He made a comment about having sex and I told him I wasn't interested. Unfortunately I then made the comment that if he took his ring back off he'd have a flock of women who'd be willing to meet his needs and the I recanted saying the ring never mattered before. He stayed about 20 minutes and then I think he was just disappointed so he left.<p>As I laid in bed I wondered if he went to his coworkers (OW) house at all since he was dejected. These are the thoughts I need to rid myself of. He wasn't this attentive when we were together so why should he be now.<p>He keeps asking how I'm feeling overall with all this and I tell him I feel pretty good - he feels about a 5 out of 10. I think I'm about an 8!<p>Thanks for the support and kind words!<p>God bless!<p>[ May 13, 2002: Message edited by: Free2BMe ]</p>

Free,<p>Just wanted to stop in and let you know I am wishing you well in your latest struggles. No words of wisdom or advice, just take care of yourself and as always,<p>God's strength and much patience to you.

Tom,<p>Thanks so much for adding your support. My H is my drug of choice so this is hard overall. At some point that NC letter needs to get from my notebook to his hands.<p>I hope all is well with you!<p>God bless!

Free,<p>One more time - with feeling...<p>NO CONTACT, NO CONTACT, ABSOLUTELY NO CONTACT.<p>Hugs,<p>OneDay

Ha... Ha...<p>Oneday, you are so funny!<p>NO CONTACT, NO CONTACT, NO CONTACT!<p> [img]images/icons/grin.gif" border="0[/img]