This morning was rather eventful, and I hope this may give some hope to you who are Plan B'ing it!<p>It started yesterday morning, I was online and my H was online at the same time, but I didn't IM him. I got offline and later in the day checked my emails. My H had sent me an email just saying, "What's up? Just wanted to say hello.". He had sent it w/in 10 minutes of me hanging up earlier. I didn't respond to the email.<p>Well, about 7:30 this morning he calls me and I didn't answer the phone at first, but finally did on the 3rd call (he was hanging up the second my answering machine came on and calling me back). He was calling me from work and I was begining to think that maybe there was a emergency with the way he was calling. His first question, I just wanted to call and see if you were ok and still alive, I was up half the night worring about you and felt like there was something wrong, did you get my email? He then asked me why I hadn't been calling him or emailing him lately (this may be where I screwed this up some), I told him that I was giving him his space and time he wanted a few months ago, that I probally should of given it to him earlier, but that I decided to let go and let God take care of things, his reply, Oh. We chit-chatted, he actually asked how the dog and a friend of our was doing (hadn't asked that question in ages) and then he said, So, after 6 months, has it gotten any easier? I can't decide if he was asking me this question, or asking it for himself with the way he put it. I told him, Honestly, no it hasn't, his reply again, oh. Then he proceeds with asking me if I had went out on any dates with guys, and I told him no, that I wasn't quite ready for that and just spending time with me right now, (why is he pushing me going out with other guys so much?) he then said that I should go out with a few guys so that I could see how good of a guy he really was, not to sound egotistical or anything my reply was that I already knew how good he was, again his reply, oh. I know I get him when all he can say is oh, he has the nickname of mouth of the south! We chatted about nothing really for about 20 minutes, then he got into his phone sex thing with me he likes to do, but fortunately a customer walked in and he had to let me go.<p>I didn't send him the letter I had written about earlier. I prayed about that and something was just put in me not to send it and just to let go and let God handle it, which I'm finding really easy to do, when I start to get stressed, I just say to myself, let go and let God and it seems to be lifted off my shoulders. I just pray that God gives me the words to say when I do encounter him, and I think he guided me correctly this morning.
