Haven't posted here in a long time. In plan A still. Almost ready for plan B or even D. Just need to get my ducks in a row. Emotionaly Im letting go more and more and I do not like WH anymore. I dont know if I could ever again? Its funny how much things change. I remember how I remember just a couple of months ago, I had this "unconditional love" for H. Now its gone. Now I see myself without him. He has finaly told me he fell out of love with me and in love w/her. That hurt me more than D-Day. At the same time it helped me to move forward and to let go. I guess thats what he wants. Right now, I just want to be happy and to be treated how I deserve to be treated. Actualy I do feel more happy now. And I know it will only get better.<p>WH is till in A. OW turns out to be major HO, party girl, etc... WH and OW are fighting alot. Im getting sick of WH. He hates me. He got laid off work today. Im doing good at me new job and love it. Lots of wondrful opertunities in front of me. WH's entire world is crumbling right in front of him. Still continueing bettering myself and will never stop. Funny how things change. Now WH is going to be the stay home Dad(but he better get a job asap).<p>And I have a new wonderful friend, Orchid. She has helped me soooo much thru all of this. Day or night she has been there for me. I just want to send her a thank you, your the best!<p>Not to mention all of the other wonderful friends Ive made thru MB. Please let me know how you all are doing. Monika, e-mail me. Sorry I havent been replying as much. Been busy with work and life.Lots of new adjustments for me.<p>Any advise or opinions ?<p>Thanks,
PI

Just re-read my post. Sorry for the mess, im soooo tired. Not much sleep this weekend. LOTS of drama. Cops and everything. Almost Plan B/D'ed it.<p>PI

PI -- I'm in a bit of crunch at work, but wanted to let you know I'd seen your post. I know your life has been crazy, but you sound so much better than where you started a few months ago. I was pleased to hear things are going well with your work and that Orchid has been a big help.<p>Please post and let us know what you're thinking now. I know you will do what is best for you and your two children -- you are a strong and confident person that has really built that up over the last few months.<p>Peace.

Hey Unsure! Nice to hear from you. I hope your doing ok? Last time I checked, you and I were on the same page. Still with me? Getting strong? I hope so. As for me everyday is a better one. I see me without WH, now Im not wearing my wedding ring, no more "i love yous", I wont even make dinner for him. Its not about him anymore. Its about me and my kids. But I have learned not to make any decisions until I am 100% sure and ready. Getting there.<p>Oh, also no more tears . Just when the police thing happened and when he told me he fell out of love w/me. But its gone.<p>God Bless,
PI

HI PI, glad to hear you are stronger, but please don't let go of that thread of hope....
I'm doing ok, been pretty busy too, my 10th anniveresary tomorrow, sad day today. I'm sure the Lord will get me through!
God Bless and please email me soon!
Love Monika

Hello PI -- Thanks for asking how I am doing? It's a mixed bag. The anger has subsided. I believe the A has ended, but I am struggling with what is left. My WH says I am his best friend but he no longer is in love me or has any desire to have an intimate connection. I am really unsure what to do here. Do I have him move home and we try to go to counseling? Or, am I just hanging on to the hope of something that will never be again? It is so hard -- perhaps even harder than when I first found out about the A. Rather than focusing on anger, I am just plain sad and feel adrift/without a clear path. <p>Are things improving for you?

Gosh Unsure, you and I always sound like we are at the same point at the same time. Im kind of confused now too. Its like I know I should move on, and I want o move on but what God says about marriage and what could be? Im just not sure. So I decided not to make ANY decisions until I am 100% sure. Almost there. Just alot of back and fourth. Not so much as the first 2 months (remember those days? Seems like years ago).I dont know what to tell you. Does WH want to move back home? Maybe wait until he asks then decide if you want him back in the home. Hope you r good. Take care.

PI

Hi, Unsure and PI-

I wanted to say that reading your posts remind me so much of how I was feeling very recently. I think it might help you to read my posts on Plan A/Plan B. The 2 most recent ones are "This is good... right?" and "the A is ending...". I was,, and still am, feeling so tired of it all. But, I was given some wonderful and wise advice from many people that came to my rescue. I think you both would benefit from reading the advice I was given. I can't tell you how much it helped put me in the right direction. Take a look at it if you get a minute.

Stay strong...