I am approaching the 1 year aniversary of d-day (Aug.). Things had been going well until we moved a few weeks ago which triggered memories of this time last year when we had moved the first time, and shortly thereafter found out that the A was happening. We are also expecting a baby, which has made my physical app. very unsexy. I am now an at home mother and have lost the ability to make my husband jealous, which was a big turn on to him. He has a very high powered job and is very attractive and many women persue him. I know this to be true because I used to work with him using my madien name and these women had no clue I was his wife. He enjoys the attention. Yesterday we finally got to spend some time alone and he told me about a divorced woman who found him very attractive, I could see that he was flattered. I avoided all LBs, but used this as an opportunity to tell him that it was necessary to keep up communication between us, because it would be bad for us to turn to others for conversation. I feel a distance between us. I do not think he loves me anymore. I feel like something may be going on again, but I have no way of finding out. We have very little time to talk and I fear that with the new baby this time will decrease again. I told him my fears. He was quite. I did not bring up the OW since it is supposed to be over-no proof, and I didn't want to LB. I feel so lonely in this situation. I just needed to vent my fears in words to people who understand the pain doesn't go away. I am slowly loosing my love-my bank keeps draining. It feels like a slow death-things were so good just a few weeks ago, I know we moved, but I just can't help but wonder if something new or old is going on. I guess the truth will come out eventually.
