Hay fellow MB friends,

Well here is my not so good update. WH has been doing drugs and I told him that he had to stop. WH blames me. I told him that I thought it would be a good idea if we seperate for awhile and see what happens. WH told me not to start and ignored me. He told me that he was very very sorry about everthing and he would really really try to stop. Well on Monday night WH came home late and I asked him where he was at. WH stated I owe you nothing and I do not have to explain myself. I LB'ed..... Big time...... Then I went to bed.

I know that I am suppose to Plan A but I just can't do it anymore. WH treats me like a doormat. And he expects me to just be here and take care of the kids 24/7. I am tired.........
I told him that whenever he goes out I am going to go out to. WH didn't like that one bit, but it actually stopped him from going out on the weekend. But then he was acting like a jerk.

One day he told me that I can go back to work when the older kids go back to school, but 2 days ago he told me that he didn't want me to work.

What is going on??????? WH told me not to worry about anything and to slow down. I don't know what that meant, then he wonders why I act like a nut. When I want to talk about us, he never does. He just tells me to leave it alone. But I can't. I am so upset and everything that he says or does makes me cry. I am on anti-depressents but they are not working. I am at a total loss.

I am making myself crazy and I can't help it. I am so suspicious of everthing he says or does I am again following him. But I guess this may be good sign, I haven't caught him at the ow home. But I find myself being consumed by the A...
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Together 18 years, Married 10 years
d-day 03-21-2002, d-day2 04-17-02, d-day3 04-27-02
3 children (2 boys 10 & 7) (1 girl 3)
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I believe somewhere on this webiste it talks about not doing Plan A when there is substance abuse involved. Doing Plan A in these situations only enables them to continue w/o any consequences. His use of drugs is the primary issue that needs to be dealt before you can even deal with the infidelity issue.

lost:

I'm sorry to hear about this development. I recently started Cing with Steve Harley. Can you afford to do this? I agree with KalGrl that if he's using drugs, you may have more of a fight on your hands than you deserve.

Good luck to you,

Even Dr. Harley would recommend...
...if his addiction to drugs/alcohol/sex whatever is too deep... too entreched...

...on your good judgment...

...Plan A will be of little value!

Still... stick to it for a while...
...be honest with H that 'separation' (ala Plan B) is coming wihtout serious medical attention.

You have my prayers.

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Jim/NSR

KalGrl,

What is wrong with him?????? I am so hurt, he was never like that before. He promised me that he wouldn't do drugs anymore and hasn't since. I just wish he would talk to me.

I am here trying to figure out why? And I am making my self crazy. I really really try not to think about the A but sometimes I can't help myself.

Believe it or not, WH has been nice. I don't know why but only time will tell. Maybe it is because I haven't LB'ed?

2long,

Thank you. I don't know how long this is going to last but he hasn't done drugs in awhile. He did promise that he wouldn't do them anymore and to this day at least he has kept that promise. Only time will tell.

I haven't been to Cing either. We can't afford it right now. Everytime I use to go to Cing it cost me 1/2. So the bill just became larger and larger. So I decided that we better pay off what we owe. When we finish paying off that bill I will start Cing with Steve Harley. But that may be awhile.

So how are you? Any progress? I really did tell him to leave, but WH wouldn't. What do you do it that case? As far as continued contact I don't know. I haven't followed him lately.... ha ha ha
But I still check his pager.

NSR,

I don't know if it is too deep. He only did it maybe once or twice a week. He hasn't done any since he promised me that he would stop. So I don't know if he is really addicted.

I did tell him that I couldn't take it anymore, that is when I told him to leave. He told me that he was so sorry that he has hurt me and he would not hurt me anymore.

Maybe he is finally coming out of the fog? To tell you the truth I really don't know what to think anymore. Only time will tell. That's all any of us have..........

Thank you for your prayers.