<BR>It's New Years Eve and it's awful. I'm trying to stay upbeat because H is coming today. But this will only be my second NYE without him in 14 years. The first one was because he was out of town working. I'd love to beg him to spend it with us but I know that would just push him away. I think me and the kids are going to stay home and spend it together. Play games, watch tv, and try to have fun.

{{{{{{{{{{<B>Mitzi</B>}}}}}}}}}},<P>Prayers for you... <P>This will be my first ever without my W!<BR>The kids and I are going to a roller-skating New Year's Eve... I hope to have fun. <P>You enjoy too!<BR>Take care of yourself... <B>we care</B>!<P>Happy New Year (Millenium) <BR>Hoping next year is better for all of us!<P>Jim

Mitzi,<P>How I can identify w/you and Jim. Today is sort of an anniversary for W and I. 8 years. <P>I am not going to see Y2k w/ her at m,y side.<P>It is going to be real hard. I have to do my best to stay up beat. I am going to try to surround me w/people who love me.<P>I'll probably cry like I did xmas. That's ok.<P>I have a plan that <B>is</B> going to work.<P>If you realy think about it the 21st century doesn't star until 2001.<P>Know that God loves you, and so do the rest of us here @ MB.<P>Be safe and w/people that love you.<P>Bill<P>"commit to the Lord what ever you do, and your plans will succeed" Proverbs16:3<P>------------------<BR>BB<BR>

My first new Years alone as well...but we have each other here on the forum and other friends for support. Remember that despite the feeling we sometimes have of despair and sadness, we have a lot of other things to be thankful for! I have the two most wonderful children in the world, a family who stands by me no matter what, and wonderful friends that have always been there. <P>------------------<BR>Susan<P><BR>

Sue, I am very thankful because I have the same things, except I have 3 children. Of course, my family loves me but they do think I'm nuts to want my H to come home. But they've never been in the same situation. That's why I'm thankful for this forum. You all understand so well!! Thanks!!<BR>Jim,<BR>Try to be strong, and know that I will be thinking of you. (and praying for you and everyone else here of course!!)<BR>Bill, stay strong. WE CAN make it!!

Mitzi,<P>I know what you mean when you talk of family thinking you are crazy for wanting you h back. Just let them think whatever. It's your life and your decisions. Mine feel the same way as well as friends and co-workers. There are only about 2 people that understand me. My ex and I have done terrible things to one another, and he has done a few more of them than I.<P>If God wants you with him, it will not matter what people think, and if you listen to Him it will happen when He decides. When my ex and I separated once before and I did not pray and took matters in my own hands, just lead me to a great deal of trouble. Sort of got some revenge on the ex that will take a very long time for him to get past.<P>Let God lead you. It's hard as heck to give up total control of your life to one that is invisible to you, but if you do you will be rewarded greatly!!!!!!<P>PS,<BR>You can get a good kind of revenge on your h though. Just have a great time tonite. Thank God for you kids. They are one of the most precious gifts from Him you will ever have, and remember not all of us get that gift from Him.

MITZI- I', fixin to leave to spend the first new years with out my W in 10yrs. I will be with friends so i think I wikk be ok. What ever you do you too have fun, and you will get through this<P>------------------<BR>brownphdt<P>

I will be with my kids. We're going to have our own party!! Mine will be alcoholic and there's won't. Horray for Cheap but Good BOONE's FARM!!