I saw him tearing open the PBL before he stepped away from the car. I’m almost certain he read it within minutes. I’m sure he wanted to know what it said especially since I didn’t offer him a ride. I would have never, not offered him a ride.

So How am I really feeling. I’m feeling I don’t know what the He$$ I’m doing or where the He$$ I’m going. I’m feeling like H is more under control then me. Even sharing a bed with someone elses child he has a plan to move, separate, divorce, move on be happy without me. I have a plan B. but what do we do here in Plan B. I feel like his plan is stronger than mine. If it where a game he would win, and I would cry. I do cry. Not as much as I used to, but I’m afraid that’s because I’m running out of tears. And I honestly for at least the past 3 weeks have felt like a lost child. What do we do here in plan B
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<small>[ August 21, 2003, 10:36 AM: Message edited by: MYB ]</small>

Little stuff keeps popping up in my head, like my h saying how long and how much he's loved me BUT he just doesn't know if we can work our problems out. Funny he never really tried. Alright, I'm going to think of other stuff I can do.

MYB,

Go have a life. I know it is hard but during summer there are soo many festival/fair to go ... many park & places to go. Don't focus on him, it is about you. It is normal you feel this way specially if your WH is dominating & controlling alpha martian.

-rh-