well, I have decided to let him go. I have made up my mind not to call him. I will not answer the phone when it is him. I can't take the heart ach anymore. My eyes are always filled with tears. This is unhealthy for both myself and my kids. I know that this will be hard, but it is something that I feel I need to do. I will always carry him in my heart and most likely will think about him daily. I am hoping that in the long run I will become a better stronger person. They say that God never gives you more than you can handle. I am hoping he knows what he is doing. My heart breaks just typing this, but it is something I need to do. Has anyone else been here????????

Yep I am right there now. After two months of no contact I thought I would be strong enough to see and speak to him mainly for the kids sake but in doing this gave him the right to try and play with my emotions and sit on the fence again. Gadly I saw straight through this and managed to only be part of this this for a couple of weeks. Dec 30th I decided to go back to no contact and yes it is hard and yes I do think about him a lot. In the end this is the only way to take control of our lives and get ourselves strong. Taking care of our own needs and our kids is No.1 priority right now. Stay positive and strong and keep posting. Take care.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Originally posted by goodgirl54843:
<strong> well, I have decided to let him go. I have made up my mind not to call him. I will not answer the phone when it is him. I can't take the heart ach anymore. My eyes are always filled with tears. This is unhealthy for both myself and my kids. I know that this will be hard, but it is something that I feel I need to do. I will always carry him in my heart and most likely will think about him daily. I am hoping that in the long run I will become a better stronger person. They say that God never gives you more than you can handle. I am hoping he knows what he is doing. My heart breaks just typing this, but it is something I need to do. Has anyone else been here???????? </strong></font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">

Goodgirl, I saw your post about letting go of your Lover. It struck me that you mentioned that God does not give us what we can't handle. I'm a Christian and I've been having an affair with a man for two years. I have many times tried to stop the relationship, but have found the pain to be so much. I do hope that at some point I can bear it, it sure doesn't seem like I can handle it.

If you are truly a Christian then God has given you some powerful weapons to use in pulling down the stronghold of adultery. Can you share with me your definition of a Christian? I can then give you some direction. Thanks and God bless!