I have been very good in moving foward in my life. I pretty much stopped calling H since he pretty much stopped responding. I am moving in my house the end of this month (early) and I am getting very excited about beginning that part of my life. I have come to grips with the fact that I never want to go through that emotional turmoil I did when he chose not to get on that plane.

He called Thursday night and left a VM and Friday and left a VM I emailed him Saturday. Messaged him last night & we messaged back and forth for a hour. He is starting to feel I am moving on and that I dont call him anymore. I told him after what happened and that we both knew he didnt have that court appt like he said he got defensive I kept cool and said I just want us both to be happy and keep things civil. I kept saying that I want us both to be happy and if that means me moving on basically so be it.

I know if I trusted or took him back I would only be stupid and have myself to blame. Since he has never honestly told me why he didnt get on that plane I feel there is nothing to build on or move forward with US at this time.

NA,
One of my favorite sayings is "Fool me once, shame on you; Fool me twice, shame on me"

Exactly, I love him very much but with him still denying why he didnt come we have nothing to build on. I just feel I cant rebuild a marriage that is still based on lying. How stupid would I be. We had a sermon at church that talked about denial and I have probably been really good a denying the facts of what really happened.