I talked to my H last night. We had a really good talk and I was really open about my feelings and my feelings of unease and lonliness. I didn't worry about try to think about what he wanted to hear but what I truely wanted for myself. I am moving the end of this month which has opened the window for him to visit. I told him about the guy at work that I met who has been confiding in me about his live in girlfriend and their problems and that we have become close.

I told him I know can see the side of a EA where someone is so lonely and hurt and when they feel they have tried everything to get that across to their SO with no feedback that they turn to someone that brings them a little joy. I see now that my H's EA was a result of that.

I told him how lonely I was and was really thinking of moving on and trying to find someone that I can spend time with and be happy with because we have been apart for 6 months now and I told him I truely felt that things weren't going to happen between us. He told me he missed me too and that he is just as confused because he is afraid to move here and be all alone if things don't work out with us ( I can understand that). We agreed to talk more then we had been and be open and honest. I told him that I wasnt sure if I was ready for him to pick up and move here myself but we talked about him visiting right after I move to see how things are between us.

I finally am feeling some peace within myself and within the resolve of my marriage whether it be I move on or whether the visit will bring anything back to our marriage. I do know that I am very lonely and do not want to go any further down the road I have created in the friendship with this other man.

Angel, I am glad for you. The most important thing is that you have peace in mind. It is not easy to reach that. Keep the good work.