When time starts to move faster and things are flying by, KEEP GOING ON!!!!!<P>Don't give up, Look ahead to even further goals, hopes and dreams.<P>Don't turn around to capture old memories that only hold you down.<P>Hold the ones close that will lift the burden of fear.<P>DON'T BE AFRAID TO MOVE ON!!<P>BELIEVE in your future and BELIEVE in yourself. Only you can hold yourself back.<P>A heart filled with hope and desire will go a long way.<P>Sometimes you will go up steep steep mountains and travel rockie roads, But if you stray from that road looking for soft grass to walk on, you may never find your hopes and dreams again... Keep fighting , Beleive in yourself. <P>It will be a tough road, but you can do it, <P>Eventhough time is running fast, we still want to stop to look at the past. Only to find a heartache of pain, and a love that will never be the same.<P>Then someone special jumps on in. To hold you close and pick up your chin. For they are the ones who love you most. They are the ones who will hold you close.<P>We are all here for you any time any day.!!!<BR>We love you, and care about you. <P>God bless you,<BR>keep us posted<P>Christine<P>

Christine;<P>Thank you for that pep talk. I am slowly coming back from that dark place. I know I have to be strong and fight all the bad. I must keep believing I am worth something. <P>And I have to remain strong for my daughter.<BR>As well as myself. You are right about me being the only one who can hold myself back or make something better of myself. It is so hard sometimes. And I cannot depend on my H to support me in this. I have to rely on myself and God. And all of you wonderful people here. You all don't realize how much you mean to me. I am so thankful to God for finding this place. Granted, I wish none of us had to be here. <P>I have blank canvases waiting for me and will try to get my creative juices flowing again. I am an artist and since this all began I have lost that creative edge. I must find it again. I'm struggling but still here. <P>Thank you, Thank you so much for caring and being there. I have a lot to learn yet and I am praying for guidance and strength. Life is a gift I must not throw away because someone chose to chance losing what they had. He chose to do this and I must find a way to get my self esteem back and become better than I was before and wiser. <P>I'm working on this and I want to move on.<BR>I must keep telling myself, over and over, I am worth something, I can rise above this.

Dev...I replied on your other post....