My H came up for the New Year holiday. We went to a local inn for a weekend package with my sister and her H. He really acted more like his old self. We drank, danced, ate and had a great time. He even mentioned on several occasions "what we decide to do", i.e., me moving there with him. When he got ready to leave sunday, I told him I loved him. He barely said it back. When he calls he never tells me he loves me when we hang up.<P>I still have my little house guest. She did get a job and is starting on Thursday. She went yesterday for training. When my son left for college, I believe they left it as "friends". She wants to go to a local community college to finish her HS diploma and I will push that when she gets her work schedule. I can't bear the thought of putting her in one of the shelters downtown. It would kill me to drive by at 5:15 when they go in and see her there.<P>As far as my H and I go, I don't know if he will EVER be able to make up his mind about us. The fence riding is wearing me down. Maybe I need to stop seeing him altogether for a while and let him discover life without me. I can't even get a commitment from him to give 100%. Don't know. I'm a fixer and he's a procrastinator. <P>He says he is really lonely. He works until 6:30-7:00 every night then goes to the gym. Says he gets home about 9:30-10:00 every night, then crashes out with dinner/tv. He takes my son out to eat about once a week. I can honestly say their relationship is slowly getting better. As far as OW, there isn't one. I truly believe that. <P>At any rate, I'm much more settled and not quite as stressed since my son went back to school and the holidays are over. Flu hitting big time and I sure don't need that. My retail job on the side has settled down as well since the holidays, so I'll probably keep it as the $$ sure does come in handy and it keep my mind on something besides my H and my little "street urchin". <P>Take care all.
