This is is why I have negative comments about her from time to time. I am still a little upset. This is when I think she is really stupid. Today I checked on her checking account and foound that she only had $6.90 when I know she still has ooutstanding checks. She hasn't learned anything in the last 14+ years. <P>This is why part of me is looking forward to her leaving to get in her own apartment. I plan on letting her fall flat on her face. Maybe that will get her to see that she was a FOOL for doing the things that she has and for wanting to be out of the house. <P>Now she has me really confused because she was pleasant today when she paged me to let me know that she would be home late. Personally, I think she is in cnotact with OM again. That might explain why she fixed my plate last night for dinner and actually ate at the table with the boys and me. I really am tired of the rollercoaster ride that she has had me on recently. This really SUCKS!!!!!<P>The last few times she left and didn't come home until the next morning, I wished that something bad would happen to her so that I would be rid of this problem: her. Everytime that such thoughts run through my head the scripture that I reads whacks me in the head with a 2X4. GOd is wonderful. He wants me to be there for her. Tobe honest with you all, I don't mind being there for her. Yet, I HATE THE CRAP THAT SHE DOES. It is the perverbial love the sinner hate the sin thing.<P>My pastor thinks that I am the one who is being selfish when I say that she is wrong in her actions. SHE IS WRONG when you look at it from God's perspective as well as from my perspective. I have been the one who has worked on this relationship for 14+ years. The only thing she has done was to let me make a fool of myself (her definition) trying to keep her happy without any feedback until she was truly upset about whatever I was doing or not doing. She fits the definition of the contentious woman described in Proverbs.<P>Enough ranting. I feel much better now.<P>------------------<BR><B><I>God Bless,<BR>Rob</I></B><P><BR>

Hey, Rob, buddy, you've got more to go...I can tell. it's OK...go ahead and get rid of it here..you have been storing in inside way too long and need to purge yourself of these negative feelings. The venting is God's way for you to handle your upsets and disappointments in a safe way.<P>Let round two rip....<P>Desiree<P>------------------<BR>"Life is made up, not of great sacrifices or duties, but of little things in which smiles and kindnesses and small obligations, given habitually, are what win and preserve the heart and secure comfort."<P>Sir Humphry Davy<BR>

Rob,<BR>I really cant tell you what to do. Being that I am a newbie here at the forum. however, i will keep you in my prayers. Just be there for her. I am a betrayer and by the grace of God my husband and I are working it out! I just want to let you know there is hope.!!! Hang in there and read the scripture!<BR>God Bless!<BR>Renee

<B>Desiree</B>,<BR>Thanks. I really am almost totally cooled off. I do that. It drives her crazy that I do stay mad longer than I do. I look at it this way. What good does being mad for an extended period of time serve. It makes me grow old that much faster and it doesn't really solve the problem.<P>However, I won't say that I haven't called her a wh*** or a SL*T in my mind from time to time. She learned this pathetic behavior from her mother and her younger sister (perception of her younger sister.) From talking with her younger sister, I would not classify her in that category. My W has not officially used the terminalogy but has in her body language shown the jealousy of sorts for her sister getting to do things she thought were immoral by her (my W's) definition.<P>THANKS FOR BEING HERE. I have made more friends that really care here than I have in 37 years of existence.<P><B>Renee</B>,<BR>Thanks for the prayers. God is in the prayer answering business. Knowing you care helps immensely. Besides the two glasses of sparkling wine has me comfortably numb. I dran it because I was thirsty. However, shouldn't have done it on an almost empty stomach. I plan on being there for her because she is thoroughly confused as she said.<P>------------------<BR><B><I>God Bless,<BR>Rob</I></B><P><BR>