Every morning I get up out of a strange bed. I open my eyes to a strange room and walk into a world which I didn't know existed. I didn't ever want to know about this world, where is my wife? Where are my children? Why am I alone when all I wanted was to be a husband and a father? I didn't do anything wrong other than ignorance..maybe thats enough. My reason for going on was my family and that is denied to me. I am alone and worse . . . empty. What good am I if I couldn't provide enough happiness to keep her with me.<P>Goodbye

james- are you on any meds? hang on man!!!!<P>WRITE US, WRITE ME JUST HANG ON- I AM THERE TOO. MY SON LIVES 20 MINUTES AWAY AND IT FEELS LIKE A LIFETIME -SO IS SHEIT DOES GET BEETER - THIS TOO SHALL PASS.<P>PRAYERS AND HANG ON

You are most definitely not alone!!!!!!!!<BR>God is always with you and everyone here is here to support you. <BR>There are many good, caring people here who truly want to help. Give them a chance. It will get better!!<BR>My prayers are with you.<BR>{{{{{{Simply J}}}}}}

{{{{{{{Simply}}}}}}}<P>Hang on! We are here for you. Be strong for those you love and yourself.<P>Talk to us...<P>Peter

I think it passed. That was the worst wave of depression ever. Scares me. <P>W is scared for me too, guess she still cares about me. But it seems she doesn't want any relationships right now. OM included, bastarX came back from Cuba with a broken shoulder and is in the hospital here now. Thats all I need is her with all these ohhh poor dear feelings interfering. How do I give her space to think and get on with my life while still having hope that we can make it work later?<P>I am hoping that I have enough hope for the both of us. She told me last night that she needs a climbing partner. Wish there was some way to straighten me up so that my spirit was where it was when we first met. There obviously was something there that she was attracted to to begin with. Wish I could find it again.<P>Help please , I dont want to go through the almosts again.<P>J

J - have you seen your doctor. A little something to take the edge off could be all you need to regain your strength.<P>You WILL get through this. You can be strong and hopeful enough for both of you. I have been. I remember how much it can hurt and the feelings of emptiness and dispair. It will get better. <P>Talk to us, keep talking to us. We're here and you're not alone. We've been there, too.<P>Lori