She is taking everything. My sanity, my happiness, my H's paycheck... Sometimes, I can't even smile.<P>She asked me to be the childs godparent knowing that my H was the father.<P>She allowed me to feel her tummy growing with my H's child inside... How could I NOT have known? Surely, I should have felt something, known something. I feel like I am dying inside. How can I live with this horrible burden?<P>I know God and the power of prayer, but right now, I wish that God could come and have a seat right beside me and give me the answers that I desperately need.<P>My H and I are together and are trying to save our marriage. I just really needed to get this load off my chest tonight.<P>thanks, guys.<P>------------------<BR>Luv, Liza<P>Never fear, because God walks right beside you, and if you get tired, he will lift you up and carry you.

Liza,<P>She can't take anything you don't give her. She can't take your smile<BR>........Your happiness<BR>...........even your sanity!<P>You've got to give those to her for they are yours and yours alone. <P>Don't allow her actions to determine your future or your attitude. We choose to allow others to manipulate our lives and determine the outcome. Sometimes we can do things, other times we can only pray and maintain our dignity.<P>The serenity prayer has always worked for me:<P>God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.<P>God Bless, you are in my prayers, Taj/Cathy

I can't even imagine the pain you are going through... but I feel like crying..... <P>May God be with you....

Liza - He is there sitting beside you, you know? It would be much harder w/out Him.<P>You've been so strong, done so well. But, as Taj said, don't give it to her. Don't let her take anything else. <P>You have your H. You have your strength, and you have the future. You can hold on to those and not let anyone take them. <P>We're here. Just hang in there. This will pass.<P>{{{{{{{{{{{{Liza}}}}}}}}}}}}<P>Lori

Oh Liza-<P>I am so so sorry!!! But I have to say that the responses before mine are really true. I feel as Lacee does-I want to cry. I can't imagine how very terrible you feel. But I also have a saying - when things seem to be so bad for me I look at someone elses troubles, usually they are worse and I would rather have mine! I know that as bad as yours seem right now there is someone out there with worse-and if you can see that light at the end of the tunnel you wil start again to smile <P>I know it will help you to know that you ahve friends here that pray for you too. I am sending you a hug to get you started on that smile and trust me-in time you will heal just as we all will.<P>(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Liza))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))<P>My prayers are with YOU-<P><P>------------------<BR>*heartache*<BR>"Loyalty Is A Two Way Street"<BR>

Liza,<BR>God is sitting next to you, take His outstretched hand and let Him carry you through this. I am so sorry for your pain, you deserve happiness with your husband. I wish there was something I could say to ease your hurt.....I know I would be devastated if I were in your shoes. <P>Hugs and prayers to you.

liza,<P>I just want to let you know you are not alone. I HAVE been here and done this and my days now, 17 months later, keep getting better and better! I was allowed to think the OW's pregnancy was her H's until she was 8mo. I felt her belly, saw the ultrasound, gave the child-to-be gifts and some precious hand-me-downs from my own child;(that part of the story goes ON and ON: discussing baby names together, trading babysitting of our older children and having her housesit for us even after my H knew her pregnancy was his... Oh God! Asking you to be godmother is a real piece of cake, though!!!).<P>Yes, I've been there and it was devastating and sickening to be put in such lies, deception and dysfunction!!! The ONLY thing worse (and yes, it is worse but not by much) was the death of our second child. There were days I felt murderous and days I felt suicidal---the pain, the pain, the pain---but don't give in, liza! There will be better days!!! This will not always be your whole life!!! That woman is a piece of dirt; her insanity doesn't have to be YOUR insanity! Do all you can to heal yourself. NURTURE YOURSELF all you can, then do it some more!!! You are in a natural grief process that will take time time time, but IT GETS BETTER. (A little at a time, more like a rollar coaster than a road, but it does). A day will come when you can think of other things for longer and longer periods, until this no longer defines your life.<P>We are here to listen. God bless and angels surround you... (HANG IN THERE. I KNOW IT IS HARD!)<BR><p>[This message has been edited by Jenny (edited January 07, 2000).]

To Taj, Lacee, lost, heartache, and alcoholic's wife,<P>thank each and everyone of you who took the time to reply to my post. God bless you, I needed every bit of that encouragement. Sometimes, I feel like I am a fool for trying even trying to work this out. I just got to read the post tonight, because last night, after writing my post I signed off and tried to go to sleep to escape the horror of this nightmare.<P>Jenny -<P>Your reply took my breath away. I felt that surely I was the only one in the world who had been decieved in such a way. Although It's sad to say, I am glad to meet you and I too share your pain. Also, my H and I have 2 beautiful daughters but, I send my sympathy to you for the loss of your child, and my prayers for God to strengthen you, and heal your heart.<P>Thank God that things are getting better for you. Thank God. I would love to talk to you more. <P>Please feel free to e-mail me at liza44@hotmail.com. <P>Again, my heartfelt thanks to each of you. May God pour out his richest blessings upon each of you.<P><P>------------------<BR>Luv, Liza<P>Never fear, because God walks right beside you, and if you get tired, he will lift you up and carry you.

Liza,<P>Oh, it is so good to hear from you. I am such a knucklehead and lost your e-mail. I've got it now.<P>Honey, God is with you. He is there EVERY step of the way. He will never forsake you.<P>I can't even imagine the depths of your despair. I am so very sorry.<P>We are all here for you. Always.<P>I will e-mail you tomorrow. Ok? <P>Take care of yourself. Find that beautiful smile again. I know you can.<P>God Bless,<P>Cheryl

liza,<BR> Your situation parallels mine. Take Jenny's advice to heart. Her reply to my posting is an enormous hekp to me because she is much further along in this situation than I am.<BR> Hang in there. I'm praying for your family.<p>[This message has been edited by anniem (edited January 08, 2000).]