Thanks cl for your reply to my post 1/7. Just had company leave for the football game that stayed with me over the weekend. Went to golf course Sat. to hit some range balls together. Went in bar after for a beer and waitress asked where my honey was. Tough question, not quite sure how to answer. Hopefully next time friends are in town from Alaska, we will be a foursome again.<BR> I read about the anger and rage that some betrayers show towards betrayed, that some of the members post about. Thank God we aren't there. Maybe that comes later as she does more things meant to ruin my love for her. But for now I'll just keep reading and studying how I can become a better person. If she will let me, I hope I can become a better husband (but that will take both of us). For now I am writing her letters about how I feel and trying to give her the space she needs and yet fulfill those emotional needs that I can. I guess sacrificial love is giving when you know it may not be returned. Thanks all for reading my post. It helps to be able to get these feelings out. Any words of wisdom about Plan A would be appreciated.<BR> GALE

I definelty know how it feels being the third wheel and going everywhere 'solo'. It's hard. A couple that my H and I use to go out with asked me to dinner last night. I thought great, since my H was suppose to come down for the weekend. Of course he didn't and I went solo AGAIN. It's getting so old. I'm just tired. But everytime I look at the bigger picture--Us being a family again, I just can't give up. i love him so much... <BR>As far as plan A, NSR has a post on it that sums it up perfectly.<P>Stay strong and be encouraged!<P>------------------<BR>"If you can learn from the mistakes of others, you won't have to make them youself."<P>

Gale,<P>Hang in there.<P>What books are you reading?<P>I'll write more about plan-a later.<P>Bill<P>------------------<BR>BB<BR>