Where to start... <P>These past two weeks have been realy good and very hard. I'm finaly finding myself, and am getting ok being without my beloved. I still miss her terribly, however I am starting to function again, w/out obsessing on her. This has been a major feat.<P>As ypu all know I have become a huge proponnent of Dr.H's methods. They do go against <B>all</B> logic and reason, but tyhey seem to be effective. I have had two sessions w/Steve Harley, both have been very educational. His confidence in his methods has kept me focussed.<P>Haveing learned the true nature of plan-a & b, has taken the guess work out of what I'm to do.<P>In my dealings w/Robin over the past two weeks I have committed zero lovebusters, this is the main concern for plan-a. I have also had several opportunities to meet some needs and deposit units in her bank.<P>The net rersults thus far...not much...<BR>this doesn't surprise me, morover I expected less. I have accepted the fact that as long as she is still seeing LRB, I will get zero needs met. I'll be the first to tell you...celibacy sucks and it isn't getting any better. A freind asked me the other day when I was going to start dateing...I looked her in the eye and in the most condesending tone I could muster I said I'm married. She is an adultress herself. Needless to say she was taken abck, and ended the conversation.<P>Where might you ask are the baby steps? It has more to do w/her attitudes, body language and her eyes, the truly reveal her soul. She has said nothing about her intentions, I don't ask. I haven't mentioned LRB in a long time. I wish I could read her mind. No I don't. Too much pain and confusion. I go to sleep each night w/a clear concience, that is good enough for me.<P>All those people that told me I woukld be feeling this way were right. The pain eases over time. I haven't cried since Christmas day. I feel myself getting stronger each day. I thank my newfound friends here on these boards for helping me along the narrow path. I feel I could never give back what has been so freely given to me, I will try to give back the encouragement and support to the best of my ability. I believe I can only keep what I have is by giving it away.<P>As funny as it sounds I'm becoming glad that this has happened otherwise I would have experienced all this growth. Go figure.<P>So i will keep doing what I'm doing while Robin enjoys her new lifestyle. She will evetualy crash emotionaly and I will be her knight in shining armor, coming to her emotional rescue. (isn't that a Stones song)<P>If I can give anyone anything it would be my positive outlook in the midst of this tumalt, confusion, chaos and despair. I look forward to the time when we can make love all day like we did oh so long ago.<BR>I will show her how inexperienced LRB really is.<P>I can't believe I just wrote that...<P>Anyhow all of you keep your heads up your eyes open and whatch out for those lovebusters.<P><BR>Bill<P>------------------<BR>BB<BR>

Way to go, Bill!!! <P>Keep up the good work.<P>Lori

Good gravy, Bill,<P>I need to read this post!!!!<P>I keep forgetting that all my plan A efforts aren't going to bring me anything back right now. You have a much better memory that I do on this!!!<P>You have grown alot, too. It shows. Watch out LRB....Bill is coming back with a vengance!!!!<P>Desiree<P>------------------<BR>"Life is made up, not of great sacrifices or duties, but of little things in which smiles and kindnesses and small obligations, given habitually, are what win and preserve the heart and secure comfort."<P>Sir Humphry Davy<BR>

Lori,<P>Your thread this morning got me thinking I wasn't going to post anything until I had some definate good news. I need to keep posting the small stuff too. I reinforces my hope and maybe give some to others.<P>Des,<P>You are so right on both counts. Plan-a isn't realy designed to bring them back, and definatly <B>LOOK OUT LRB!!!</B>...lol<P>Matbe if we can keep our attitudes positive it will spread to the others on this board.<P>Bill<P>------------------<BR>BB<BR>

GO Bill!!!!!!!! <BR>Lesa<P>------------------<BR>Take care and God Bless.<P><BR>

GOOD GOING!!!<P>Alex