Okay, here is where you all get to see me be an "immature baby" (yet again). I am so absolutely pi$$ed off right now. Do I have a good reason??? Probably not. Earlier, I had written a long post regarding Nicole's intentions behind telling some of you about Chrissie posting here. I had her with me while I typed it so as I would accurately describe what she told me about her motives. I did this so as to not "mislead" or "misquote". As most of you are aware, the site was having some sort of work done on it, and I was not able to post this question. I left the screen up, so when I was able to send it I could. I tried several times over a period of a couple hours, but nothing would happen. I would hit the back button so it wouldn't get lost, and wait again. I don't think Nicole really wanted me to post that topic as it was questioning her motives and personal honesty. Anyway, she asked me to go and pick up Rachel from a friends house. When I returned, the site was up and running again, and I asked Nicole if she had posted the topic for me. She told me that she tried, but that it had "disappeared", and she couldn't retrieve it. Funny how it never disappeared when I tried it. Did she purposely erase it? Of course she totally denies having done this. I am not so sure. I am sure I will get flamed over this one. Since I haven't been honest lately, I'm just waiting for some of you to say that I have no basis to be upset. Maybe she's not responsible. I can't help feeling like she is. I have a horrible memory and I know that I won't be able to relay the same message I did before. I just want to jump up and down and stomp my feet!!!! I want to leap on the floor and kick and scream!!! I want to go and throw snow all over the place!!! I want to type incoherent things on this computer!!!! Oh....wait....I think I did that last one.<BR>STOMP<BR>STOMP<BR>STOMP<BR>STOMP<BR>Arik <BR> <P>This is an added note...because after reading what I had posted, Nicole said that I had not given all of the story. So I will allow her to type what she says is the "rest of the story"<P>*Arik asked me to call our Duaghter's friend's house as he was running a bit late. Since we only have one phone line I had to disconect the computer from the internet. I left his post on the screen, disconnected, called the friend and then reconnected. I then tried to post his topic. It didn't work again so I hit the "back" button as both of us had done previously. This time the topic was gone. All that was shown was the blank "post a new topic screen" with my user name and password on it. His post, user name and password were gone. I know that in the past people have had trouble with lost topics.<p>[This message has been edited by Being a better Arik (edited January 11, 2000).]

um,....Arik,<BR>the board did the same to me when it went down for maintenance....I was in the middle of a great post too.....it would not send....then when the board was back up...my friggin post...(and you know how long and convoluted they get...LOL)...disappeared....swear to everybody's god....truth...the board lost my post and I e-mailed MB just in case they could retrieve it..but they cannot...and I also told them they should warn us about the board going down as some of us are indeed posting..I have lost other posts this way as well........<P>Dylan<P>ps, did you read my reply to your reply on my 2 other posts?<P>------------------<BR>so maybe you wanted a martyr....just a regular gal would'nt do..but baby, I can't hang upon no lover's cross for you...Jim Croce

Soulloss,<BR>Yup, I read 'em.

I am with Nicole on this one. If you disconnet and sign back on you lose your post. My AOL cuts off a lot and I lose my post...this is very frustrating.<P>But come one guys, choose your battles. It looks as though you are just looking for something to be upset with Nichole for.

Soulloss,<BR>Yup, I read 'em. Sorry this short. I'm not ready to give up my tantrum yet.

Arik,<P>Probably won't help your tantrum any, but here's a trick I've used when not able to post -- I select my text and cut and paste it to a text file on my desk top. If you're running Win95 or WinNT you can right click on your desk top and choose NEW in the menu, then choose NEW TEXT DOCUMENT. Save the document, then whenever the forum comes back up, you can submit again.<P>You know Arik, even if Nicole did it on purpose... chill. In an hour you'll be wondering why you were so angry.<P>--andy

well, you've gotten 2 responses where we have told you it does indeed happen....if you are not ready to give up your tantrum yet, then your tantrum is not really about the post...that has been effectively explained....perhaps a little pi$$ed off about something else?<P>have your tantrums, Arik...just be careful where you throw blame....<P>Dylan<P>------------------<BR>so maybe you wanted a martyr....just a regular gal would'nt do..but baby, I can't hang upon no lover's cross for you...Jim Croce

Maybe you're right Susan. Maybe I am just finding things to get angry about. No idea why. I guess I have been in a "bad space". I have been very easily angered, lately. Maybe I am in the process of losing my mind. Or maybe, I have lost it already. Maybe it's one of my "multiple personalities" coming out?<BR> could be<BR> Ya never know<BR> Yup<BR> It might have been us.<BR> What do you think?<P>See????<p>[This message has been edited by Being a better Arik (edited January 11, 2000).]

Arik,<P>Please, please, <B>please</B> seek counseling for your anger. <P>The board was down... and this was just "one of those things" ...you need to LET IT GO. <P>Arik, do ya think that maybe this anger is more about everything surrounding Chrissy?? Sure looks that way to me. You need some help to deal with your pain over ending that relationship. <P>Remember, I've gone through withdrawl, and I still have to work with my OM. It is hell on earth! I understand more than you realize, but getting down on your W isn't gonna help, and neither is continuing to contact Chrissy. <P>I'm so sorry for your pain, but frankly, I am more worried about Nicole and what she has to deal with.<P>------------------<BR>~Sheryl<P>Nobody knows what you want except you, and nobody will be as sorry as you if you don't get it. ~Barry Manilow

Does everyone think that I am just in denial about Chrissie and I??? That I just don't see this??? I just don't think this is totally the case!<BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR>I don't think I will be asking anyone for any kind of sympathetic ear in this site any more. I think all I am going to get anymore is Nicole supporters. Thanx guys.<BR>Yup....this is me having a fit!!

<B>Nicole</B> supporter?? Arik!!!!! I am a marriage supporter, and you are <B>married</B>. <P><B>STOP</B> would you...long enough to see that I care, and that everyone who writes to you guys care <B>so much</B>!!!<P>Arik, do you hear me? I <B>care</B> about you guys! <P>------------------<BR>~Sheryl<P>Nobody knows what you want except you, and nobody will be as sorry as you if you don't get it. ~Barry Manilow

hey Arik.....<P>how do you get the blue guy to bug his eyes out like that?????<P>come on, buddy, you can't post something basically blaming her outright for something that actually does happen on it's own and not expect to be told to calm down....of course, we've only told one of you to calm down....<P>oh dear...what about the other 12?<P>seriously, what do you expect to hear....<P>"Arik, you're right....Nicole is evil...she schemes and manipulates and lies ALL the time...she probably deleted your post just to piss you off......she doesn't even love you...she's just using you for foot rubs!!"<P>there you go.....<P>I really do want to know how you make the blue guys' eyes bug out......<P>Dylan

Arik,<P>Would it help if you had somebody off-list to email to? Your wife has email buddies. Wouldn't it be nice to have someone you can vent to and not have them get judgemental?<P>I'm available if you want -- airheart@home.com<P>BTW, how'd you get those new emoticons? Especially the confused one, which is in high demand!<P>--andy

WAY TO GO DYLAN!!<BR>AT LAST SOMEBODY SEES THAT SHE IS JUST USING ME!!!!!! I'M SO GLAD THAT AT LEAST ONE OF YOU AGREES WITH ONE OF ME!!!!!!!<BR>Only kidding of course.<P><BR>P.S. to make the eyes bug out...just look at the left hand side of your "post" or "reply" screen...it's all in the smilies legend!!

Never mind... <p>[This message has been edited by new_beginning (edited January 11, 2000).]

Damn it!! I'm just bound and determined to set my file on "fire", so here goes another useless response!! Yay!! Fire, fire and more fire!!!!<BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> [img]http://www.marriagebuilders.com/forum/images/icons/confused.gif[/img]<BR>I love them emoticons!!!!!!<BR>

Hey, I've lost posts, too...and I do airheart's copy method when I have a long post, too. I save mine in a word perfect file, so I don't have to type so much sometimes.<P>Two questions...is this anger thing new or have you always allowed yourself to lose your temper?<P>Do you want your children to exhibit this type of behavior?<P><P>------------------<BR>Faith, Hope, Love Remain,<BR>but the greatest of these is Love.<BR>1 Corinthians 13:13

you are just jealous because my file was flaming before yours!!!!!!!!!!<P>and I do not have any cool emoticons on the side of my reply screen...<P>what? did one of yourselves take my emoticons....that's why you are ballistic!!...you're od'ing on those crazed emoticons....hey! those are mine..use your own...<P>give 'em back or I'll send the Nicole brigade after your sorry a$$.......LOL<P>- she who is annoying...Dylan

<P>Psst...Nicole...Arik's not looking...<P>My H is uhm, quite intense emotionally too. Now, that's not to say I'm NOT, but when he gets in his "I'm mad as h*ll and I'm not gonna take it any more" moods, it takes all the finesse I've GOT to ease him back out of it! You can relate? <P>Luv dem bug eyes !!!

Hey Arik,<P>I have lost so many good post and reposes that it makes me cry too.<P>That doesn't mean Nicole is to blame. <P>Now I know and understand the Crissie thing from her last post.<P>Relax buddy...anger is a horrible thing unmanaged. <P>You know Nicole loves you and we do too.<P>Have a great night you two! Remember that none of us can change the past and only can work on the future.<P>You two are going to make it. It is just the proverbial roller coaster.<P>How do you make the icons animate any way?<P>------------------<BR>God bless you and all of us.<P>Samantha<P>