Maybe it's just my notorious bad timing, but the last couple of days on the board have been really weird, just when I've been about as down as I've ever been. Mostly I've tried to encourage others who seem to be hurting even worse than I do, but I have little left to give. I haven't vented here before. Now that I feel really down, I feel like no one cares. So I too am leaving. Maybe I'll do better elsewhere. Sorry to such a downer.

Please don't leave... it seems like you are doing so for all the wrong reasons... take a break if you need, but please take a few deep breaths and realize that you are cared about here!<P>plus...<P>where else can you find one of these -> <P>Deut

{{{{{{{{{{<B>schizzo</B>}}}}}}}}}},<P>The feelings you have... the ups and downs...<BR>happen not just to people...<P>They happen to the whole forum at times....<P>I've seen these waves of very down-beat posts... followed by incredible good/fun/even humorous posts.<P>If there is much that is bothering you... take a short break... but come back next week or 2 weeks from now... I'm sure you'll see a change. <P>I'll put you on my list of those leaving...<BR>But to be honest... the only time you should really here is to...<BR><B>find time within your own soul</B>...<BR>Many need that time...<BR>Some will find it when in recovery...<BR>Most will say... it's to get closer to God...<P>Don't leave because you don't like the messages... Don't read the negative ones... Help those that need it... ask help from those you know will give it... <P>Hey... <B>you're</B> loved here too you know... <BR>and if you don't know it... I'm telling you so! <P>Yeah... if you need a break... OK.<BR>But... you're <B>always</B> welcome back.<P>Jim

Hey Schizzo...we all feel really down sometimes and this board goes through cycles...just ignore it. I do. It always gets better.<P>If you stick around long enough I was thinking about an answer to your post from yesterday and was going to compose it today. However if you aren't going to be around to read it I won't spend the time...let me know!<P>Oh and if you do tary a bit, how long has it been since discovery of the affairs? I know you have said, but I can't remember.<P>------------------<BR>Faith, Hope, Love Remain,<BR>but the greatest of these is Love.<BR>1 Corinthians 13:13<p>[This message has been edited by Faith Hope Love (edited January 14, 2000).]

Soulooss exh - yeah, probably are the wrong reasons, though I do need to spend more time on my life.<P>NSR - thanks, you're always an encouragement.<P>FHL - please do post your other reply, I WILL read it. It's been 21/2 months. Am I wanting too much too soon??

Soulooss exh - yeah, probably are the wrong reasons, though I do need to spend more time on my life. <P>NSR - thanks, you're always an encouragement.<BR> <P>FHL - please do post your other reply, I WILL read it. It's been 21/2 months. Am I wanting too much too soon??

Yup, basically...too soon. You are too raw with emotion to "feel" that needs are being met, IMHO...and based soley on my own emotional timetable.<P>You feel so down because this all sucks so bad. And you have many more days, weeks and months of pain ahead of you. Now did I brighten your day? <P>However, it does get better and it does get easier. And although it feels like you will feel this way forever, you won't.<P>I will reply to your other thread, however.<P>------------------<BR>Faith, Hope, Love Remain,<BR>but the greatest of these is Love.<BR>1 Corinthians 13:13

Hey Schizzo - you can't leave yet!!!!<P>I'm off to work but wanted to tell you to stick with it......I've seen progress with you already and take it from a long timer in this nightmare - 2 1/2 months is a mere moment!! Time is your friend believe it or not!! Time and knowledge!!<P>I didn't even get to you yet!!! Sorry about that, but I am following....just was in a bad place and I don't like to "help" when I am like that!!!!!<P>Almost out of it though...so please stay and let me talk with you when I am up again? please........?<P>BIG HUGS, and we do all care!!!<P>Sheba

I wish you wouldn't. These things DO pass on the board, take it from those of us who've been here a while.<P>Take a break, if you like. I have to every now and then. But come back. <P>Lori

schizzo,<P>I too have feel that way from time to time but hey, we are trying to vent & heal here. In my case I am probably as self-centered as my wife & many times don't notice other people's post. Please don't leave, let's all work together to heal our souls.<P>Alex<P>------------------<BR>Live and learn<BR>