H is coming "home" tomorrow. It will be the first time we've(kids and I) have seen him since the Sunday before New Year's Eve weekend. He called earlier "to check in".<BR>He's due in sometime in the morning. <BR>~DREAD~<P>Remember on New Year's Eve day, by phone, he refused to allow me to go with him to ck the bldgs for Y2K and said,"I'm divorcing your @ss anyway" when I couldn't understand why I couldn't go? Well, on the phone earlier, we were being civil and I said something like," I'll probably always have a "soft spot" for you". Well this is the clincher H says,"where exactly IS that soft spot?" You see, he's starting it again.<BR>What's it? IT= the chase, the pursuit, whatever! He started talking kind of raunchy to me and I just said,"la la la la" to drown him out. I should have told him off; but, I <BR>just couldn't! I made a joke of it when in reality it hurts my feelings. He'd like nothing better to USE me this weekend and then leave me feeling USED and ABANDONED!<BR>I know because I've allowed him to do it before. I'd be a liar if I said it didn't make me feel better knowing he wants me. BUT <BR>I need him to want me to be so much more than his "sex buddy". For me it's gotta be all or nothing. I deserve nothing less! I'm going to need alot of strength to get through the weekend. Pray for me guys? thanks <P>------------------<BR>For I know the thoughts I think<BR>toward you, saith the Lord,<BR>thoughts of peace, not of evil,<BR>to give you an expected end.<BR>Jeremiah 29:11

Prayers.<P>------------------<BR>Faith, Hope, Love Remain,<BR>but the greatest of these is Love.<BR>1 Corinthians 13:13

Kyra;<P>I'll be praying for you too. When I first saw your post I thought of my goodness, she not only has trouble with her marriage but also a hemorroid(sp) problem! Guess they could be consisdered the same thing really.<BR>Both can be a royal pain in the @ss.<P>Anyway, Just want you to know I'm thinking of you and will say a prayer that you find the strength to get through this weekend.

Hey Kyra,<BR>Long time no see! I'm sorry your H is still being a jerk. I'll have to email you later this weekend, or you email me. <BR>I'm praying for you, keep your chin up, and stay strong.<BR>Butterfly <BR><P>------------------<BR>There are deep sorrows and killing cares in life, but the encouragement and love of friends were given us to make all difficulties bearable. <BR>-- John Oliver Holmes<P>The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.<BR>-- Elie Wiesel<P><BR>