I am really confused right now. I have discovered that my husband looks up gay porn on the internet and he masterbates to it everyday. Does this mean that he is gay? Or does he have some sick sexual addiction? Someone please give me some input on this matter. I love him very much and I do not want our marriage to end. He does not know that I have discovered his dirty secret. Since my discovery, I have spied on him daily. Everytime I find out that he has done it again, my stomach sinks, I feel nauseous, and I begin to hate him a little more. Someone please help me cope. I am not sure what this means. I am afraid if I confront him , he will just deny it and it will make things worse between us. I realize something needs to be done to save our marriage , because if this continues I am going to leave him for sure. He has no clue as to why I have been treating him so nasty. I can't go on like this. Do I need to seek the advise of a marriage counselor or a addiction counselor?

Dear Sicknside. Oh boy! I am suggesting a site that I think you might find very helpful...I have been a regular contributer to the open message board for about 4 months now, and I have never had so much support from other members. Please check it out. My prayers.<P>Michelle<P>------------------<BR>Peace<P>

Thanks Michelle for telling me about that site. I think it is really going to help. God Bless you!

You're welcome <P>Hope to see you there.<P>Michelle<P>------------------<BR>Peace<P><BR>

You may be dealing with a man coming out of the closet, very, very slowly. Gay porn is one of the first things that spouses with same sex attraction get into when the buried feelings start to surface. There are checklists and resources at <A HREF="http://members.fortunecity.com/str8/str8talk." TARGET=_blank>http://members.fortunecity.com/str8/str8talk.</A> <BR>Good luck.

This same thing happened to me. Although not on a daily basis. My husband ended up coming out as bisexual. Which surfaced a whole different number of issues. It's a touchy subject but needs adressed. Good luck to you.