My divorce was finalized on April 17th. I was doing fairly well for a while but now I have taken a major step backwards. I remarried after being single and raising my son alone for 12 years. Thought I found Mr. Wonderful. The year we dated before we got engaged went really well. My husband was raised a strict Catholic and used the religous excuse for not wanting pre-marital sex. The minute we married the nightmare started. We had a fairly normal sex-life for a few months (we were trying to have a child since we were both 40 and he never married before). As our problems got worse our intimacy complete stopped within about 3 months. We went for counseling at which point he told me that he did not have an attraction for women, told me that he would never and has never acted on being with a man. We continued to work on the marriage, but 8 months past with no relations. I would not force the issue because I tried to give him space, but he never came around. We had a huge fight 3 weeks after we moved into our brand new house, and my whole world came crashing down. When this first came out he told me he was so sorry to drag me into this mess and then he thought of all the women he dated if it would work with anyone it would have been me. No matter what I did in the marriage I was wrong. I was totally controlled by him because it was his way or no way, bottom line he took it out on me. When we split up he was so cruel, said that I made him think he was gay, that he was with many women and enjoyed sex and that it was just me he didn't want to be with. Then he proceeded to go full force with putting the house on the market, going to see a lawyer, spliting money, ripping up credit cards. What was supposed to be my dream ended up a nightmare. Sad part is that I strongly feel there were things in his past that confused him and that he probably isn't even gay, but he thinks he is. I am having the hardest time. There was no closure. He never came to me and changed his story or said he was sorry. I still have not let his secret out. I don't know when the pain will end. I come to tears everytime I think that this happenned to me and that someone could be so cold. I am really hoping there is someone outthere that can give me some answers or tell me where I can go to find out about situations like this. <BR>
