Well here it is the whole story. My wife and I became friends first almost six months till we dated then a few more months we lived together then over a year, then another year before we were married. During that whole time we were soul mates best of friends. We always said that there would be no divorce we would work thru anything that came up. I am a recovering Alcoholic comming up on four years. About 18 months ago I stuffed a really bad feeling, then fell into my old alcoholic behaviors. Lieing manipulting controlling and anger. I started to neglect her and the family responsibilitys. Found a person that became my best friend he had almost 9 years in AA at the time buit was acting just like I was. Last July I snapped on W with a huge rage, I was suppose to go to Anger Managemnet but puit it off. One of the worst decisions I ever made. Then in Feb I flew into rage twice the second time she called the cops, no charges were filed but she got a PFA. Now it seems even things that I do honestly and innocently are taken by her as manipulation. Since we seperated I have focused on me changeing the behaviours that I dod not like, going to anger management, seeing a personal counselor. I do love her with all my heart and soul. I can see where she is coming from. I have destroyed almost all the trust she had and hurt very bad. All I know is I do not want to loose her and my family. See I can never have kids and her daughter, was my famliy. I aksed her this week if I could send over an Easter Gift foir step daughter her answer was no cards or gifts for either of us please. I trust in God and give this to him. But I need to have hope and think that we can get back toghter, is that wrong? I am holding up my end of the financial responsibilities, but that 8is really hurting me maintaing two households. HELP!!!!!!

can I ask u how old u are and if you are a veteran?<BR>You may have some other issues to address if so.

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by Queen B:<BR><B> can I ask u how old u are and if you are a veteran?<BR>You may have some other issues to address if so.</B><HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>39 yo and yes vet