I have treated my wife badly throughout the 7 years we have been married. I have talked to her in ways that a husband shouldn't. I have ignored her, not helped with taking care of the family, and I have let her carry the burden most of the time. I have spent my time with other interests that now seem meaningless. We have had arguments where I blew up at her for no good reason. I have never physically abused her. She has left me for a few days at a time during our marriage, but I was always able to talk her back. After the last big blowout, she left and stayed gone. That is when I realized I had to get professional help. After seeing a psychologist, I was diagnosed with some behavior disorders which were no fault of my own. Things that should have been addressed a long time ago. It's been over 2 months since she left. I have continued therapy and I'm on medication for my problems. She has served me with divorce papers a month ago. I know I have destroyed some of the the love she once had for me, but other than my behavior problems, I have been a good husband. I never cheated, don't smoke, drink, or do drugs. I keep the bills paid on time. She just cant find it in herself to trust me, that this change is permanent, not like the empty promises of before. I know she still has some love for me somewhere inside, but she says she has to think with her gut instinct and not her heart. What can I do to try and regain that trust, show her I mean all the promises I am making to her. I offered to go to counseling with her or go to talk to our priest together, but she flat out refuses. I've begged her to give it some more time and postpone the divorce, get to know me over again because I'm not the same person now. She will say ok, then change her mind a week later. Please give me some kind of advice as to what I should do.
Thank You.