This is my second time writing to this forum. The first time was about a month ago. I will give a re-cap. I used to gamble a lot on sports. I just got married to my best friend and high school sweetheart last June. She had no idea that I gambled and when I told her for the first time in November, she was devastated .... understandably so. For a little while, I went to 1 GA meeting a week and it seemed to work. I gave complete control to my wife over the finances. Every penny I made was directly deposited into her checking account which I had no access to. I was given a $10 a day budget. I then received an expense check from my company and w/o even thinking about the consequences, I gambled it away. I still denied that I gambled and one lie lead to another and to another..etc. Finally, late February she moved back home and we have been seperated ever since. It's been over 2 months! I have continued to go to my meetings. Now I go to 4 meetings per week, plus my therapist twice a week and with all the phone calls made and received from my meetings, I am constantly on the phone with other GA members discussing our issues. I want my wife back. I made the biggest mistake of my life. I hurt her and she feels betrayed and deceived. I am so upset that I caused her so much pain. She says she still loves me but she just can't trust me, so she wants to get a divorce. She has every reason to feel this way, but I disagree with her decision to divorce me. I miss her so much. We have been best friends for 2 years before we started dating, then we dated for 6 years and we've been married for 10 months. She is everything to me. There isn't a minute that goes by that I am not thinking about her and am wondering when I can see her again. I know that no matter what ends up happening, I will continue to go to my meetings and to my therapist and to excel in my career, but it is very difficult to do this w/o her support and love. We have no kids so there really isn't anything keeping us together. She used to go to Gam-anon which is the recovery room for addicted gamblers family and spouse but she hasn't gone in months. Any suggestions? Please Help.
