Dear Hilly Girl,
I like your handle.
I may get interrupted, so I'll post some ideas and come back. I put a recap at the end, due to my inadequately photographic memory.
My style of posting is to raise questions and give ideas and references. Please do not consider my ideas as advice. You are closer to the situation, and if you feel it is time to get out, then go.
I basically post from the standpoint of staying together. One problem with conflict is that it makes marital realtons difficult. You say you might be considered loopy for making up. Actaully, I see it as saving the marriage. When there is conflict there is a greater role for marital relations to play in calming things down, but a greater reluctance to give in under adverse circmstances.
Give your husband a copy of the Love Diet, click below,
The Love Diet for Husbands to Keep wives interested The books the Intimate Enemy recommends having an action plan when things get out of hand. Sit down with your husband and work out a way to give each other a breather and space, so you can do this witout affronting the other.
There are a number of resources on the web about abuse issues. Do a seach under Emtional Needs and Resloving Conflict for Member No. 26189, jade72. There are a lot of books and web references in her posts.
You might read about Radical Honesty, RH, on this board Articles. I apply radical Honesty by, watching for the flag of a temptation to keep something secret from my spouse. If I such a temptation arises, then I work to avoid doing the act, until I can get POJA, Poicy of Joint Agreement (MB Articles) If there is something in the past that would hurt my wife, I make a jusdgement call, based on a number of factors. If it comes out to keep a secret, then the difficulties of keeping a secret serve to remind me not to get in that position again.
It must be tough trying to stand on the bottom of the world. I hope you can read this from that far away. Must be nice to have a Universtiy education.
There are a number of powerful individuals who post on this board. Sometimes they have slammed Jade 72 or myself for something silly. Don't take slams too hard. Just keep posting and make some small effort to be considerate if someone says something.
So post back, and I have plenty more ideas, when you are ready to direct me to more details.
Recap: 4 chilren 8 to 12, Husband depressive trends, gets agitated, destroys property.
Posting is therapeutic.
Blessings,
Quipper
Husband of 28 years, raised 2 challenging kids, still struggling
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