Sorry everyone, this is migh first visit on this forum and seems to have hit the wrong button.
Anyway, Sweetpea's letter is just my story. Although when I suspected that my husband was cheating on me, he really was but would always find a perfect explanation and lead me to believe that I was paranoiac and hysterical. Anyway, over last Christmas he could not deny it as I had manage to gather all the prooves. After a 3-week truce, where I started therapy, acupuncture (highly recomended to alleviate the pain of depression) and when my husband was travelling abroad and back, we gave ourselves an ultimatum to come with some plan for the future. He then told me bluntly that he did not love me anymore, but that he wanted us to stay together for the child. I told him I still loved him but did not want to stay with somebody who did not love me. So I fled with our son to my parents. For one week, we kept in touch through texts. (A good way to avoid outburst). but I definitely thought that my son's place and my place was home. So we tried to find away to do this as harmless as possible. I tried to "sell" him the tricks advocated by the emotional needs book. He then told me that he could no longer stand the burden of daily life: looking after the garden, bins, my routine in the morning, my routine in the evening, our son's bedtime routine. And he said that he needed to be away of all this before he could consider starting something all over again. So he now off traveling for 5 days and will then move to a furnished apartment. We are then supposed to get calmer and more relaxed. He probably needs time to fall out of love with the other woman and dropped the defence he has raised in front of me. Then we should start dating like in the old days 17 years ago.
I do not know if this strategy is good. It is certainly risky, because it is giving the opportunity to the other woman to ease her way back into his life. But I cannot force him to leave with me and to make the efforts recommended in the emotional needs guide against his will. He is not receptive at this time. He'll need time.
This is very hard for me, but I am forcing myself out of the house. Last week when I was at my parents place I went out twice and really enjoyed myself and managed to forget my problems for a few hours. And I do intend to do so in the future.
I have kept this secret from my closest friends but now I am going to tell them and go out with them like in the old times.
In the meantime, I promise to stay in touch by text only and if I need to shout or yell by pain, I call my therapist. Time i my only ally in the matter.