I feel like I have been running in circles for 4 years. i keep catching him and he keeps lying!!!!! what is love anyway?

What is love? Wow, tough question! Tough, but I'll try to answer it. Love comes in so many different forms. There's love for your children, love for your animals, love of nature, love for your spouse, and so on and so on. True love, I think, comes from the very core of one's being. This kind of love, I believe, wants only to nuture, to be kind, to be supportive. A person who possesses this quaility would never want to hurt another human being. This person has worked through his own issues and is able to give love as well as receive it. This person is rare. Your husband, who is into pornography, obviously does not possess this quality. However, I'm sure in his own limiting way, does love you. Perhaps, he needs to find out what is so rooted in his subconscious that he needs to exploit women in this way. Meanwhile, know that you are not any less desirable than the day you first met him. Try not to let this get your womaness ("womaness"--is that a word) down.