I can`t get past my anger at my stbx.. I have just ssigned the negotiating papers, and all will be over and final soon.. He left me nov.. 98` and has never looked back once.. (his second marriage, my first) he also left his son, from first marraige about the same amount of yrs he chose to leave us.. he never once talked to me before he left, about his ill feelings, left me in silences about his feeligs, and now he never talks to me what so ever.. he never seem to have any respect, or concern about us, and has now cut all contact now for at least a yr.. I am still devastated that he could keep treating me with the silent treatment, and I never did a thing to ever once purposly hurt him.. (even since he left) I was the one, who was betrayed, he cheated, lied and left.. we have a 12 yr old daughter (that was 10 at the time) and she is now clashing with me big time.. I can not take this pain any more.. he already has killed my soul, and now she is pouring the salt into the wound.. she is blaming me for his leaving.. she is blooming as a teen, and that age is hard enough as it is, so this all made her life a bit harder to bare and I am the one reeping the benenfits, and now I`m so dissappointed with my daughters and my unstable relationship.. I have tried everything to get her to open up to me, and will of course continue to try, she is going to a therapist, but it is too soon for much in results.. I am loosing my mind with sadness, and patience with her, as to feeling any joy in my life, for so long, and not feeling any hugs, touch, or affection of any kind, to ease this pain... I am totally numb inside... and feel I am slowly lossing my self, from the inside out.. <P>I am sorry this is so depressing, I am at a low, right now.. and wish there was some way to over come this pain.. I make the best of each day, as best I can, and I know that is all any of us can do for now.. but geez.. this just doesn`t seem to ease up, as far as hurt, or anger goes.. <P>AV <P>