Don't know where to post these days. I don't even know sometimes if I am coming or going. It has been over a year now since discovery and my H's affair is still continuing. I had filed for divorce last October and my H has been dragging his feet. He won't fill out his net worth statement and in a way I was glad that things weren't moving too fast.<P>Well his actions speak so much louder than words. The lies and cheating have continued all this time. And it has just gotten worse. He continues to see the OW and spend nights away from home and even days at a time. But all the while they are just "friends". Well Labor Day I happened to find them together at a local bar. (great way they spend time together). My H is also an alcoholic although he doesn't believe it and the OW just enables him. He lost his job because of too many sick days (the all night drinking and spending it with OW and not going in to work). Now here I am trying to keep things together and he still hasn't found a job.<P>So now I had a motion filed to make him fill out his net worth statement so my lawyer could proceed with the divorce. He had 30 days to comply. The time is up on Monday and then he could go to jail. In a way I have all these guilty feelings about it coming to this but then again he only has himself to blame if this happens. He hasn't felt guilty about continuing his affair with the OW or staying out nights or lying and cheating and spending any money he does get on beer and the OW instead of bills.<P>So here I sit wondering what will happen and why do I feel the way I do. In a way I am scared because he will be very mad and probably blame me. But he could have stopped it and that is his fault.<P>When I saw the two of them together on Labor Day I finally had them caught red handed. I told them finally we could get it out in the open and they wouldn't have t lie anymore. I said aren't you happy now. My H wanted to go home and talk and I said no. The OW never said one word but she did tell my H she felt bad for what had happened. Yeah right she doesn't have feelings.<P>So now what do I do. My H has been home all week but I think his behavior is in response to me finding them together. Time to cool it for a while. OR maybe because of the legal thing.<P>I just want a normal life or some form of a life back. I get home tonight and most people would have dinner. I come home to a garage full of guys drinking beer. It is like my garage is the local hangout and drinking hole. And I could tell by the way my H was acting he was getting drunk and it will be the same thing over and over day after day. This is not the life I want anymore. Maybe the legal thing will make him think not only about our marriage but also about his drinking problem.

bc,<P>I know Sheba would say hang tough...<BR>...but are you in or moving toward Plan B?<P> <P>Jim