Gee, he want's to talk to me... I know that I've got to fill out some papers for the insurance, but he said there are some other things he wants to talk about.<P>Well, he offered dinner, and I've never been one to pass up a free meal. <P>I bet he is going to tell me he got a job and is moving out of state.... do you think it would be rude to order a bottle of champaign as soon as he tells me??? <P>Maybe he will say he finally found a way to refinance the loans we have together, so we can seperate them.... that would be GREAT news.... I can pay off my share, and then he can move away, and I can get on with my life with out wondering if he will make the payments, or if I'm going to run into him at the mall. <P>Gee, what if he says he's discovered he can't live without me???? I guess I'll just have to ask him if he still wants to be cremated? Sorry, that was petty. <P>Maybe, he's getting married again.... that would be something.... I'd have to try really hard not to laugh, or toss my cookies... TeeHee TeeHee.<P>Ok, so I'm feeling a little punchy, and I'm wondering what is soooo important that he can't tell me over the phone. I guess I'll find out about 6... <BR>

let us know, we will be waiting with bated breath.<P>thl

Good luck girlfriend!<BR>

Dinner....<BR>Important news?<BR>No man is dumb enough to invite his ex out to give thought first to what will she think if i remarry?<BR>So hopefully it is about your loans... it'll be easier to make that break.<BR>either way whatever is in store... good luck.<BR>female rtn

God, I know I sounded so.... at ease .... about the things he wanted to talk about, but now I can't quit crying.... This <B>SUCKS</B>.<P>I don't want to care.... I really don't, but I still (somewhere, down in my misguided heart) love him a little... I have to to let this upset me so much.<P>Well, this is what he had to say...<P>1) He is moving back to Missori... not only is he moving, but he also had to tell me he is going to be moving in with a woman who he has been seeing. Even though he said he didn't start seeing her until Feb, I get a feeling he started seeing her before we (make that HE) gave up on trying to get back together.<P>2) His cancer is back. This is what is hurting me the most... I've been crying for over 4 hours... <BR>He only has one kidney, and there is a tumor on it, and it can't be removed with surgery... he really looks bad, very sick. If the experimental meds don't work, they give him 12-18 months if that long. <P>3) He wanted to tell me in person that he cried when he found out my Grandmother died... he said he loved her, and that he was sorry. <P>4) His dad has cancer too.<P>5) And, oh, by the way, the twinky has moved back to town.... great.<P>I didn't want to admit this, even to myself, but when I talked to him (he called when I was on my way to Granny's funeral), when we were getting ready to hang up, I started to tell him that I missed him and I love him... that scared me then, and now.... well, I'm not sure how I feel about it now. <P>It must be dump all bad things on Butterfly week.... I'd say it can't get any worse, but then it would.<P>I'm going to go to bed now, I'll see ya'll tomorrow.<BR>B

{{{{{{{{DAWNETTA}}}}}}}}}<P>Yes, I would agree you that right now, life sucks. You are in my thoughts, as is your relationship. <P>Keep in touch with your X, even though you are divorced, as possibly that could make a difference in his recovery. <P>If you need us we are here for you, lets us know how you are coping.<P>thl

thl, <BR>Thanks for the hug. I'm feeling better today... I guess it was a lot of shock yesterday, and being emotionally vulnerable from everything else that has happend. <P>I don't know why I got so upset... I have a new person in my life (ok, an old person... ummm, actually a person I've known for a long time, that sounds better ). We are slowly rebuilding our friendship into a relationship.... very slowly. <P>Well, gotta get back to work....<BR>B

Dawnetta - I'm so sorry!! I know it was tough. <P>I went through a long time when I simultaneously loved and hated x. It's only human to hope...... He left your home but now he's leaving the area and he's in poor health. This is not good. <P>Big hugs to you. And lots of prayers. <P>--Cinderella

Oh Dawnetta, <P>I am so sorry - I hadn't read this before. There is nothing really to say. There is so much about the body that we don't understand, medicine can do alot, so can the power of prayer. <P>