I was at a point of great dispare i didn't know if or how i could take anymore lies and betrayals and unspeakable pain in my heart , I went to my church and prayed to GOD to help me uderstand and give me the strenghth to do what i need to do , and i asked him to give me a sign some how to know it was over that he (H) was never going to uphold the vows he made with to me . The next day after i went to the mail box and the phone bill was there which i thought was our house bill was that of my H 'S cell phone in it was the proof that he was in yet another relationship, after he said we were going to seperate for the good of our marriage. The following week i had this unexplainable need to go to my husbands work , (someone told me to go ?) there he was standing there with her(ow) all happy and someone i did not reconize. Is God telling me its ok? Was it something he new i needed to see to be able to let go?

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Keep praying. God sometimes puts you where you are because He is showing things you need to know. I always wondered why after praying about my move to another state, that everything seemed to fall into place perfectly for the move. It seemed that I was led here. Then the affair and my life turned to pure hell. I wondered why He'd do that to me. Well, He knew my husband was leading a double life, and moving me away from all my friends and family and putting me out here alone was the only to shine the light on what he was doing. Otherwise, I'd never found out. I was too busy to notice before.<P>Then I kept asking for signs from God only if he wanted me to take Ken back - only my signs were doves, bambi and all his buddies prancing before my eyes thru my back yard, and neon signs in the sky saying take him back. That's all. Well, it never came down to that. But I will tell you, when you put all your trust in God to handle it, he does lead you. It doesn't seem so because sometimes it seems your prayers go unanswered. But he does answer, and you suddenly realize that he is shutting some doors and opening new ones for you. You just have to take His lead and follow it.<P>P.S. I'm no longer waiting for Bambi and Thumper. Instead I found out who my husband really was and what he was really doing and for how long, and I discovered I really didn't know him - and really don't want to.<P>Take care.<P>------------------<BR><BR>Kathy