Read some of your others posts in the last few days... Sounded like you are feeling kinda down. Hope things get better for you! <BR>You are in my thoughts. <P>arm6868@yahoo.com

Thanks blindsided,<P>actually am better. T-day was pretty strange, but I survived it. I think the loss of companionship is what has bothered me the most. That and the fact that she seems so happy right now. I really miss having someone to be with, but I've decided to stay alone until this is completely over. Looks like a long and lonely year ahead of me....<P>How are you doing? I noticed from some of your other posts that you travel a lot. same here. My boss gave me some slack when It looked like I had a chance, but now that she's given up, I'm signing up for all the travel I can get. It feels great to get out of the house.<P>Anyhow, this holiday is down, only one more to go. I have absolutely no desire to do the tree, but I will for my son. We're going down to the boardwalk & check out the lights at the beach with the top down. Hope it stays relatively warm <P>Hope you made it through the holidays OK.<P>Take care...<P>------------------<BR>nick<P>it's only time that heals the pain and makes the sun come out again

I am doing "ok".. Started seeing a new counselor last week that I like a whole lot better than the last one. As for the travel. Right now it is my sanity. It gives me the diversion I need. Otherwise I work from home, and "home" isn't really where I want to be. Doesn't feel the same. Yet when I am on the road, I only want to be home. Typical woman, huh?. Never can make ourselves happy!! <BR>I really know what you mean about the things that you miss. Holidays were actually easier than I expected. What I really miss is laying in bed at night and talking about what went on during the day, or chatting while cooking in the kitchen. The quiet times when I just knew that he was "there". We have been talking a little lately though. I am trying NOT to read anymore into it than there is. I am letting him take the lead and make the decisions for awhile. I leave again tomorrow for a week and a half (VA), so there probably will be minimal phone contact and he doesn't have a computer... He has insisted on taking me to the airport though!! <P>Glad to hear that you are feeling a little better. I know all too well how hard it is to keep the "good feeling" going. When I start to feel really good I want to share that feeling... then I realize that the one I want to share it with isn't here... What a catch-22! <P>PS... DO the tree... I wasn't going to do one, but did anyway... I can't ruin everyone's Christmas just because I am sad...

Hi, thought I would contact you this way, glad to see you are still using the site and looking to the future,<P>allways in my thoughts lots of hugs<P>------------------<BR>karen

I've been thing about going back to counseling, if my company insurance will cover it. I did some counseling with Jennifer Harley-Chalmers, but obviously on my own dime.<P>I'm with you on the travel. I'm ususlly gone 100+ days a year & always loved getting on the road, but coming home was always on my mind when I was gone.<P>I too miss the quiet time, the touching, the sense of her pesence, letting me know that I'm not alone and I have a partner who is going to work with me to attain and share "our" dreams.<P>Anyhow, I've got my son for the rest of the week, so aside from homework, looks like a nice one.<P>You picked a good week to come to Virginia, looks like it's going to warm up a bit. If you don't mind my asking, where are you headed? I'm in SE VA, in the Tidewater area.<P><P>------------------<BR>nick<P>it's only time that heals the pain and makes the sun come out again

I will be in Charlottesville. How far is that from SE? I am not overly familiar with VA, but I will be up in the mountains. Let me know if you are interested in exchanging "war stories"? Ha-ha. I will have the weekend free. Glad to know that you have your son. I know it makes the days pass easier...<BR>As for this year and travel... I will have spent about 40 weeks on the road.... Next year so far is looking worse... Will be spending a fair amount in VA from now until March though.

Charlottesville, the lovely Piedmont area, home to UVA, Thomas Jefferson, etc. About 3 hours from here. Just to the west of Charlottesville is Skyline drive. If you've never been, it's definitely worth it. Some great circuit hikes & fantastic twisty roads. (Skootz is already jealous)<P>Wow, 40 weeks & next year is worse? Your freakin flyer miles & Hilton rewards must be massive So what do you do the other 3 months of the year <P>------------------<BR>nick<P>it's only time that heals the pain and makes the sun come out again<p>[This message has been edited by c00ker (edited November 26, 2000).]

Well.... I used to spend it with my with my H, now, not so sure. Mainly just hang out with the dog and plan the next disaster with work. Since part of my job and planning and setting up computer software systems, that's mostly what I do when at home... Plan, plan, and more planning!! <BR>Ok, gotta know what a "skootz" is??? I am pretty familiar with skyline drive and love to hike and take pictures... Plan on getting in some of that while I am up there... This is a great time of year for those mountains.<BR>The UVA thing is a little wild for me... Been out of that scene for quite some time! As for the freakin flyers (as you put it).. Yes, most of my friends love me for them.. I generally have no desire to travel if I get the opportunity to go home!! <BR>

Sounds like you work for my company. Everything we do turns into a disaster, with a lot of help from our customers <P>I e-mailed you who Skootz is. Hope you don't mind.<P>Great time to go to that area. The leaf gawkers have gone for the season. UVA wild? hmmmm not compared to where I went to school <P>Understand completely about staying home. Mine is just kind of big & lonely right now. I've got my son til Friday, & then it's a week of living in the dungeon.<BR><P>------------------<BR>nick<P>it's only time that heals the pain and makes the sun come out again

Ditto that... 2,000 square feet of loneliness and an acre of land.... <P>And nah... the college isn't wild, but just not used to being surrounded by that many "kids"... It should be nice this time of year.. I was there a couple of months ago and it was perfect!! <P>As for the company...I think it is a miracle that we get anything done sometimes... Never realized private industry was so disorganized.

Private industry disorganized? You should try working for the military!!!<P>You wouldn't believe the way some of our Ops get run...<P>------------------<BR>nick<P>it's only time that heals the pain and makes the sun come out again<p>[This message has been edited by c00ker (edited November 26, 2000).]

You do have a point... Worked in a quasi military establishment for 13 years and thought they were disorganized.. Real world was a real shocker though. Compared to what I was in there are almost NO RULES. Just what a control freak needs, huh?