Today is the day....<BR>I called H left him a message then called him back and during our converstation he said " I have changed I don't know what I want but do know I don't want my old life back"<P>I said so you are happy with the changes and he said NO..but I don't want the same things you do anymore... I said that includes your family...His reply "Divorced parents DO TALK to their kids" After more words he said bye and hung up..So I mustered up my strength ...called my attorney told him to go thru with the Divorce and quickly...called H back (he didn't answer) so left message..." You don't want your old life back sooo...I have taken the Divorce off of hold....from now on we shall talk thru our attorneys...." and got off the line and blocked his calls so that he cannot call us..( which he hadn't anyway) until his time to talk to our son and then I will unblock the line for him to get thru....<P>This is just as hard as the day I started the Divorce and I have done EVERYTHING I can think of...and NOW I must quite DENYING that he will come around....out of the fog...or whatever and just move on with my life without him....<P>I wanted God to help me make the call to my attorney and he didn't..but after talking to H...it was easier to pick up the phone and JUST DO IT!!!<P>I think If I can I may not check this site for awhile...unless I have Divorce things I need questions for....Time to give up...move on and let God lead my life where he wants it to go....<P>I will not fight this anymore....<BR>I hope I can get strength from all of you that have moved forward...and avoid all the sites that talk about rebuilding...My heart has finally crubbled...<P><BR>Tyra

{{{{Tyra}}}}}}}}}}}}<P>We here are so sorry to hear of your H's endless fog. We are here for you. the D/D board is a completely different board, with people mostly that have been through the process, and are trying to deal with it.<P>try to let go of the anger as soon as you are able. That makes dealing with everyone easier. I know, I know, easier said than done, but it takes awhile.<P>Learn to live life on your own, and take care of yourself.<P>WIFTT