After several weeks of thinking that the wall was crumbling, this week was a revelation. I posted details on the infidelity board (Nervous breakdown, and new revelations). But, my wife admits that she had not let me in. Intentionally. Basically because she is afraid, that if things don't work out, I will be hurt again. But, she now says she is ready to try to let me in. <br>So, after 4 fake outs, am I to believe her now? I posted a few weeks ago that she had let me in, but I was afraid to enter. Is it any wonder why? Perhaps it is lucky I didn't. <br>She still does not want the physical contact, the "I Love You's", etc. She feels "pushed".<br>I can't even follow her lead. i.e. - she started kissing me, tenderly. After which I started to massage her arms. After a few minutes I tried to kiss her on her lips, tenderly. Ouch! You would have though I burned her with a cigar. <br>I hope some of you will read that post. It was quite long, and I don't have much time, now.<br>Sorry I have not been able to read or reply to your posts. But, my weekend was pretty well booked.

Bill,<p>(((HUGS)))<p>I read the other post and I agree with what was said there. Listen to what HG Brawner said. Sometimes we have to do what is right even if it hurts the one we love. You saw what happened, and only you can know how urgent this really is. To me it sounds very urgent. I would call her doctor but I would not do it behind her back. I would let her know that you intend to do it. Of course this is all what I would do and in a small way did with my H. You need to judge your situation and do what your heart and God tell you to do. My prayers are with you as always. <p>Steph

Steph,<br>As I posted on the other board, I do plan to call her doctor upon his return. I will tell her that I am doing this.<br>Thanks for your concern.