Well………..<P>I knew this day was coming, I just didn’t know when.<P>The time has come for this little hawk to spread his wings and fly, fly away. I won’t be going far and I may not be gone for long, but it’s definitely time that I move on. At least for now.<P>I have learned so much and have been inspired by so many of you over the past 8 months. This site has definitely saved my sanity more than once. Words can’t even begin to express how much some of you out here have done to help me get through the absolutely lowest point of my young life. Aside from the death of my father when I was just a kid, nothing compares to this. <P>I know that I have made some life long friends from this site, and for that, I couldn’t be more pleased.<P>To everyone: Thank you all for your help, your advice, your guidance, support and prayers. Without you, I don’t know where I would be today.<P>Soaring ever higher,<BR>Jayhawk.<P> jhawk93@kc.rr.com <BR>

Shawn,<P>You know what?? You won't be able to stay gone for long! I couldn't leave! LOL <P>Anyhoo...you know you can always come back if you feel that you need to. You'll be more than welcome. Let us know how you're doing from time to time!<P>And you know how to get in touch with me!<P>Love ya,<BR>Mitzi

Jayhawk,<P>Its so funny, it makes me think of the Godfather - "Everytime I try to leave, they keep pulling me back in"! And it is so true! I haven't been here in about a month or two. I stopped back two days ago and I am sucked in again <P>What I intend on doing is stopping back here maybe once or twice a week. Maybe think about doing the same!<P>Take care!<BR>God Bless,<P>Mike<P>------------------<BR>God always waits for the right time to do the right thing in the right way.

Oh my god, whatever will I do without you??

Fair Prince Shawn, thy princess hath drawn faint with the grievous heartache and sadness which hath overcome her. She shall mourn for the and doth pray that thou wilt keep her in thy address book so that she shalt occaisionally hear from thee. Thou doth know, I understand, that she shall eagerly and earnestly await any news from the Kingdom of Kansas City thou mightest send. <P>With fondest affection,<BR>Cinderella<P> <BR>

Shawn,<P>Soar high and far, my friend.<P> <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR><B><BR>Aside from the death of my father when I was just a kid, nothing compares to this. <P>I know that I have made some life long friends from this site, and for that, I couldn’t be more pleased.<BR><HR></BLOCKQUOTE></B><BR>I know what you mean about the pain...the sudden loss of my older brother did not cause a pain as deep or long-lasting as learning of my wife's A, even though we're still together. I also have learned a lot during my ordeal about the value of friends.<P>Shawn, I've only gotten to know you recently, but I've learned enough about you to know that you're another friend from here whom I wish had never had reason to learn about this site. I'm glad that you're doing well, though. Don't forget that Harley's principles are valuable whether in trying to restore a damaged relationship or in working to build a new one.<P>I've got your email address saved and I hope you'll keep mine--I've appreciated hearing from you.<P>I haven't been to KC in ages, but if you do more to Boulder, we get up that way maybe once a year. Who knows...<P>Anyway, take care.<P>Steve<P><p>[This message has been edited by StillHers (edited February 26, 2001).]

Hi Jayhawk,<P>please please check in from time to time to let us know how you are. I will miss you. And I thank you from the bottom of my heart for being there for me during some of my most horrible moments.<P>Take care of you, and know that I only wish the very very best for you<P>Jo

Well everyone, it’s been about two weeks since I posted my ‘goodbye’ and I just wanted to thank you all for your well wishes and sentiments. Just as an update, I am doing very well.<P>I read Mike’s post where he told of his breakdown and that he has just turned his marriage over to God. I have never been that religious of a person, but I have always been spiritual in my own way……Anyway, I had a major breakdown of my own, then I decided to quit torturing myself as I was and I prayed for God to take this burden from me. I basically broke down and did the same exact thing that Mike did. <P>To my amazement and for whatever reason, it worked! I have been doing better and have been happier in the past two weeks than I have been in a very long time. There haven’t been any tears, any breakdowns and very few unhappy thoughts. Any thoughts of my ex or of our marriage have been positive and refreshing. I really feel like I have crossed a major hurdle. I know that I may slip again, but I’m not expecting it to be very far.<P>My ex came by the house on Tuesday to pick up a few of her thing and we talked for about an hour. I hadn’t seen her since the end of December and our visit was nice. I almost got the sense from her that she was missing me a little more now than she had usually let on in the past, but then again, I wasn’t looking for anything from her this time either. I just enjoyed visiting with my friend and I left it at that. To may amazement, this visit did not set me back a step like our previous ones had done. <P>Whether this is God’s influence or my change of attitude, I don’t know for sure, but it’s definitely working. For whatever the reason, I am thankful.<P>I’m going to keep doing what I’m doing and will keep hoping for the best, whatever the future holds. Once I know that I am strong enough, I am planning on returning back to MB in an attempt to help others who are still here. A wise friend of mine told me that he returns back here to ‘give back’ to others on this site since he had been given so much. I agree with that one 100%.<P>Until then, I hope all of you are well and I will continue to keep you in my thoughts.<P>Shawn <BR>

Thank you, Shawn,<BR>You say once you are strong enough, you'll come back to MB to help others. <P>By your recent post, you already are. It helped me to hear how well you are doing, it gives me strength and courage. I will come out of this, mabey better than before??????????<P>Hope so.<P>Thanks again,<BR>Petrie