I tried to save my marriage, I really did but it's become so painfully clear that the man I married is gone and has been replaced by this rather unpleasant srtanger.<BR> I told him today to go ahead and start proceedings, that I won't fight it but to be fair. He began to cry when I told him that the man I once loved no longer exsisted and I wanted no part of what he has become. It may have been harsh but it's the truth. I have lost much of my feelings for him and can only feel those things when I reach way back to the good times. My husband is dead to me and this man is not my type.<BR>I have been lied to, cheated on, degraded, picked on, yelled at and threatened. I never did him any harm and yet he has harmed me in so many ways. I can't allow him to continue to do this and I can't keep my life on hold anymore.<BR>I'll miss him but he's been gone for a while and I'm merely mourning a phantom.

I am not sure what to say but I hope that you will find happiness someday.<P>Part of me is afraid to be where you are but then again if it comes to that, then the love is gone the man I knew would be "dead" and maybe life will gone on without him. <P>Prayers and thoughts with you.<BR>Hopelessmom

Im afraid but for the first time in months I feel relief. <P>If the man I love came back tomorrow I'd hug him until his eyes bugged out but that's not going to happen and too much has been said for me to think that this is the wrong thing to do.<P>My life will get better and at 29 there's a world now open to me that I didn't have before.<P>I will miss him always and carry a torch for him forever. I love him like I always have but this is destroying me and I have to stop it. Love is not always enough.