Hey Gang,<P>For those of you that know me, I thought my life ended March 13, 1999. That was the day I had concrete evidence of the A. I threw her out. I tried to reconsile and she didn't. I hit rock bottom. Figured life wasn't worth living. Yeah, I had the suicidal ideations thing going on. Thank God I never went thru with it.<P>Two years later and some odd days, I couldn't be better. I could never imagine that I would be happy again with out MY Valerie. Now life could not be better for me. Everything is going my way. Things are just falling into place.<P>In that time span I learned about me, put me first for once in the 13 years that I was repressed. She hated when I acted up when we were out, hey, that's me, I'm a jerk [remember, I'm the village idiot] and I'll be the first to admit it. I love to have fun. I have to be the center of attention and do it very well. She wouldn't let me be me. I HATED it!! Not anymore.<P>I love my "D present" a 2000 "arrest me" red Trans Am. I have pulled so many rabbits out of a hat with this puppy, it's not funny. I should have had at least 4 tickets and been in jail by now. NOTHING!!! Most recently, I got stopped by a State Trooper two weeks ago while playing with it, just seeing what it could do with the Corvette engine. [40 year old with a 13 year old mind] He got me doing 80 in a 40 zone. Good thing he didn't catch up to me on the straight away, I may have been going a little faster. He tells me that he could have taken my license on the spot and impounded the car. He let me go with somewhat of a soft warning. "Next time, take it a bit slower" Can you believe it? Would have been a clean arrest for him.<P>Last night I went to an EMS {emergency medical services] party that had a Hawaiian theme. I went with my employees [friends] and had the best time. My face and stomach hurt after being there an hour from laughing so hard. I walked away with the best dressed award. I look good in a grass skirt!!! I got a gift certificate for one of the great restaurants up here. <P>And last, but most important, I found a special person here on the boards. Yes, not what I was looking for when I found this site, but, we went thru the same things and there was a connection. We are taking it slow with no expectations, just to have fun and live life once again. It would be a great M since we are both graduates of MB. I must admit she said the L word and I was kind of scared of venturing into a "new" relationship. Still licking my wounds. We will see what tomorrow brings. Who knows? I'm having a blast now and enjoying myself because life it too f*cking short.<P>So, there you go. There is life after D. I have learned my lessons with the last relationship and have so much to give.<P>Don't give up, it darkest before the dawn. That is what I am trying to say here.<P>Wishing us all the Best,<P>Medic... aka Zippy... aka Tim

Hey Tim!<P>You know, it's amazing! Sometimes I sit and wonder how we've all made it this far. But for some reason, we have!<P>You know I think the world of you and Gina! And wish you all the best! <P>Hugs,<BR>Mitzi

Hey Zippy,<P>this is the first post I read today. Thanks for giving me a smile. But more importantly, I'm glad YOU'RE smiling. And Gina too. You both deserve it.<P>There is life after D isn't there?<P>I'm in the process of finding out that I am an ok person, and that I do have a lot to offer. That my feelings and thoughts do matter. Even tho my ex wasn't a horrible viscious person, I have come to realise that everything about him was exactly that, him. And selfishyly, him only. Whatever he wanted, or needed, or desired, was what was done. I thought I was being a good wife by saying, "whatever you want honey, is ok with me" Now I realise that I mattered too. Just not to him.!!!!<P>Anyway, I'm so happy for you and Gina. It's great to just be happy isn't it?<P>Now, on to more serious things......<P>Are you taking that red car to VA Beach? Can I have a ride? Can I have a drive? I promise I'll only do 80 in a 40 zone, cripes,, I've just remembered you guys talk in miles don't you. My god, that's fast. You naughty naughty boy.......<P>Was that state trooper cute? All the pictures we get over here of your police are sooooooo cute............<BR>Maybe one of your ambo friends could come to VA Beach too, we could do a little bit of matchmaking for Joey???????<P>have a great night, and keep happy<P>hugs to you both<P>Jo

OK...I'm thrilled to hear about everything......except the speeding. WHAT ARE YOU THINKING!!!!! <P>I do have to admit...my first car at age 16 was a fire engine red Camaro!!! Had deep dish wheels or whatever you call them. I got stopped all the time...and I wasn't even speeding!! The car was a hand me down from my brother. Oh yeah, I forgot...it also was jacked up in the back...what were those things called???<P>Now I am 45 and drive something resembling a long truck...I know you've seem them all over... <P>When my kids get a little older I'm going for a convertible of some sort...and SUGGESTIONS><P>Now, It's so great to hear you doing so well. Just be careful driving. <P>

Hello Zippy!!<P>Nice to see ya...<P>About the car... did you sell your old one? I need one!! 1977 Vega, wasn't it??? <P>Wishing you and Gina the best life has to offer!!! <P>------------------<BR>~Sheryl<BR>(a bit worse for the wear, but hanging in there)<P><B>Life <I>is</I> difficult</B>.<BR><I>The Road Less Traveled</I><BR>~M. Scott Peck<p>[This message has been edited by new_beginning (edited April 09, 2001).]

A MESSAGE OF HOPE ON THE OTHER SIDE!!!!! THANKS, I NEEDED THAT!!!<BR>GAJ

Tim,<P>Congratulations on the great news. I don't know how great I'll feel 2 years after the big discovery day, but I have 8 more months til I get there, a lot can happen!<P>Relationships are great when you find them and you were NOT even looking! I wish you both the best.<P>Dana<BR>

Thanks for the upbeat message! In as much as I know I will get through this, I still need to hear success stories of those who have been in my shoes.<P><BR>It is so true when we are told that we need to find ourselves and treat ourselves well. At this point, I am having a hard time liking myself and thinking myself worthy to be loved-So I have alot of work to do! But I know I will make it and quite possibly, like you, have it better than ever before!<P>So happy things are working out for you!<BR>Petrie<BR>

Geez, and i should have kept going when the cop signalled me over, (have done it before!) i had to go and stop, when he had 4 cars drivers' licenses with him, and couldn't leave! arrrggghhh!<P>and i got the 77 mph in a 45, for the second time in a month! (last july!)<P>damn, maybe when my life is back to order do it begin to drive like i used to????

You know, it'a really encouraging to hear from someone who's looked over the edge & come back to find the rainbow. I think I know deep in my heart that I will be happy again, although I know it's going to take some time. Looking back on how I felt 8 months ago, I couldn't imagine myself where I'm at today, but I made it this far, so I guess I'll make it all the way, eventually <P>I'm hoping to meet all you guys in June... I'll even bring my snorkel & mask for the hot tub <P>------------------<BR>nick<P>it's only time that heals the pain <BR>and makes the sun come out again

Do you have to be divorced to come to this Va beach event?<P>I could use a get a way (dreaming)<P>Hopelessmom

Hey Zippy <BR>Just doing a little lurking.<BR>You deserve to be smiling!!!<BR>So how dark does it have to be before the dawn? <BR>Should I keep waiting?

Hopelessmom,<P>pack your bags. Let's go.........<P>Nick,<P>mask in the hot tub - won't it get fogged up????????<P>Can't wait for this guys. My holidays have been approved. Now I just have to hear back from my lecturor about when my exam is. Hopefully before the 22nd, so I can really let my hair down - Oh I forgot, I shaved it all off....... It was sooooo hot here a couple of weeks ago...... had to cool down somehow.<P><BR>

Hey Gang... Guess who?<P>Sorry it took so long to reply, I'm playing Bob Vila and drywalling the mudroom and downstairs bathroom. I am deffinately a jack of all trades, master of none.<P>That and I actually had to work two days this week. What is up with that? TWO DAYS!! Thank God I don't have a real job. <P>MITZI!!!,<P>We made it this far because of all the care and support we provide for each other. I would be in the nut house long ago if I would not have found this site. But, you knew that already. <P>Hey Jo,<P>Yes the red rocket is going to VA Beach, topless I might add. I didn't really look at him. I felt like an idiot for not checking the rear view mirror. I had my portable radio with me and knew the Saucon cops were in a different sector, didn't expect a Statie out there at that time of day. I figured I would be able to see him from the back seat of the patrol car when I had the charm braclets on.<P>I do have one EMS buddy coming down, but, she like guys... Sorry...<P>Hello TT<P>I drive an ambulance so we go fast all the time, never had an accident in 23 years. The speed limit for us is as fast as the damn truck will go. <P>Ah yes, the 70's back end up in the air, Cragar SS mags. Are you thinking tortion bars?<P>I was going to get some killer big [censored] tires for the back of this thing. Then I was informed it would mess up the ABS and traction control. What a rip off!!! Severe case of Peter Pan syndrome going on here.<P>The Seabrings are nice rides, might want to consider it...<P>SHERYL!!!<P>I never had anything but a sport vehicle my entire life. Do you guys have the older folks [see, I didn't say Blue Hairs or Silverbacks] driving Covettes, Z's and Trans's. That will be me. If I can fit my walker in the back seat, I will be tooling around sporty.<P>Hey GAJ,<P>Yes, there is hope. I would have never believed it 2 years ago. but here I am telling you. There is live after infidelity and D. Believe it my friend.<P>Hi Dana,<P>Isn't is funny? Life finds you when you weren't really looking. I am having such a blast. People in the hospitals and stuff ask how I'm doing and I always reply "I couldn't be better". It makes their face light up as well and it's true.<P>Hey Rejected,<P>I'll tell ya what, the A was a big kick in the self esteem for me. I started to fix myself and found that I am worth love and affection. People like me because of me. Unfortunately my W was the only one that didn't. Keep pushing on, the rainbow is very near.<P>YO Tom,<P>Dude, I have no idea why the Trooper let me go. Probably felt bad for pulling over a dumb [censored] that should have see him in the mirror.<P>For a split second I was thinking, ok, he has the same engine in his car, but mine is lighter. Maybe I can outrun him. Then I remembered that a radio signal to another cop is even faster, so I pulled over. <P>Nick,<P>Happiness comes from within. She did a bad thing to you and it hurts like hell, believe me I know it. I was happy before I met Val, she did not provide that for me. Yes, I was happy with her, but that was on a different plain. I am responsible for my own happiness. No one can hurt you mentally unless you let them.<P>Val called me twice this week already. First to say she just realized it was the 9th and forgot to get a check to me [We are still paying off some bills] She wanted to bring it down. Um... no just mail it, that's fine. "I don't want you to be strapped" I told her I'm doing great, no prob. <P>Then last night she calls and acts like a first grader having no idea about the taxes. Wanted to know if any forms came here for her. I told her I would look, been a little busy, don't always open up the mail right away. Any way she wanted me to bring up any forms for her today. I told her I would mail them. "NO, I won't get them in time"<BR>Man, she is getting pathetic now.<P><BR>And Hopelessmom,<P>The only pre-requisite for the VA Beach blow out is to have fun. You are more than welcome. I have 4 rooms reserved. If you are serious... Moose7771@AOL.COM<P>

Wassi,<P>Poop, I missed ya in the reply. Forgive me? It was very dark here, but now the sun is shining ever so brightly for me. Look within yourself. I got a killer library of self help books and found myself. I do some meditation and take walks every night enjoying nature.<P>I'm kind of into a new age religion and it has done wonders. It's not for everyone, so I won't advertise here. <P>Basically, life couldn't be better for me.<P>I hope you are great as well.<P>Zippy

uh oh....<P>Reverend Zippy? Is that you? I can see... I can see....<P> <P>Sorry, just had to let that one out....<P>OK, you guys need ground support & I'm a capricorn, so I was born to organize (or is that criticize?) So, what about a VA Bch. MB dinner? Where? When? Menu?<P> <P>------------------<BR>nick<P>it's only time that heals the pain <BR>and makes the sun come out again

Oh, Nick,<P>Watch out, I'm Wiccan and can cast a spell on you!!!!<P>Bark like a dog, now, bark like a bigger dog. <P>I'm nuts, don't mind me.<P>The Pinhead