<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by LostHusband:<BR><B>I'm missing something here, too.<P>Can't answer why tom.<P>Please edit you message and take word starting "f" out</B><HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>I'm doing a search for Bill's brain.<BR>There must be a million things running throught it right now. You seem so quiet.<P>

Dara, I'm crushed. Everything I ever wanted in life is leaving tomorrow. More than likely with our courts I'm going to turn into a weekend father. That sucks but it's reality. I can't even breathe right now. What do you do when you lose all your dreams.<P>Lord have mercy upon me for I know not what to do.

Does this have something to do with her going to her sister's this weekend?<P>If I were you I would think about calling her sister(s).<P>Do you know where she is going?<P>Did you ever find out what was in the mysterious 'blue bag'?<P>Did you guys have a fight the night before? Were you intimate?<BR>

Does this have something to do with her going to her sister's this weekend?<P>No, she's going to see her mom at an anual event.<P>If I were you I would think about calling her sister(s).<P>Do you know where she is going? yes<P>Did you ever find out what was in the mysterious 'blue bag'?<BR>no<P>Did you guys have a fight the night before? Were you intimate?<BR>no and hell no<P><BR>

Pray for peace Bill.<P>Pray and read Psalm 91.<P>There have been many times I thought I was at a crossroad, one forced by my own anger. For some reason, it always turned out ok. Why? Through prayer Bill.<P>Put your marraige at the cross. Because you, or noone else in this world can fix what is done Bill. Only God can. He promises us comfort. He hates divorce. The bible says if the unbelieving spouse wishes to depart, let them go. For God has called us to live in peace. That means that God DOES know the torture we face in this. Nowhere else is there hope. Nowhere else will you recieve the unconditional love He has for you, Bill. Noone else in this world can promise you comfort. But He does.

So whats up with the one word answers?<P>Are you upset with me?<P>I wish there was something I could do for you right now.<P>((((Bill))))

Thank you Dara,<P>I know all that let go stuff. I'm not ready to. The torture on the kids and I. I know that when we tell them tonight that they will be crushed.<P>I think that I don't know what the f(*& to think. My head is so screwed up right now.

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by Learning as I go:<BR><B>So whats up with the one word answers?<P>Are you upset with me?<P>I wish there was something I could do for you right now.<P>((((Bill))))</B><HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>Oh, dear dear Dara, no I'm not upset with you. My freaking head is about to pop off. I'm lost. I don't know which path to follow.<P>Can you rub my shoulders? They're kinda tense right now.<P><p>[This message has been edited by LostHusband (edited May 03, 2001).]

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by LostHusband:<BR><B>Thank you Dara,<P>I know all that let go stuff. I'm not ready to. The torture on the kids and I. I know that when we tell them tonight that they will be crushed.<P>I think that I don't know what the f(*& to think. My head is so screwed up right now.</B><HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>Bill, allow me to share something with you...<P>At first, after d-day, I kept pursueing Rick, asking him to just give me hope. Give me a shot. Just be open to my love. EVERY TIME I asked him for hope I became devastated Bill. Because I never got it. <P>Whats wrong with that picture?<P>How could God move in my marraige if I wouldnt let HIm? I was interfering. And it broought me alot of anguish. I just kept touching that hot pan over and over and over again because it was so alluring to me.<P>Richard's mom is the one who called me on it. I couldnt 'let go'. So I didnt. I still showed my love, but gone were the pleading and begging for a 'shot'. My will throughout my marraige got me nowhere quick. My planning. It took me awhile to realize that. In order to fix this, I began to see that it wouldnt be done with my will. Only God's will. All I was doing was interfering. So I prayed for strength to do it. <P>You know what surprised me? IT brought peace. Because by me 'interfering', I realized I was doubting God. Bill, I too have been faced with the agony you are experiencing. Only two-three weeks ago he packed up and left. And I went numb, as you are now.<P>

Dara, if I type something that offends you please forgive me. I don't mean too. I am not thinking well today. Other than my Mommy, this room is my only support. I'm going to need that today.

lolololol<p>[This message has been edited by Learning as I go (edited May 03, 2001).]

DARA<p>[This message has been edited by LostHusband (edited May 03, 2001).]

Remember Bill, this does not define who you are!!!<P>Worrying will solve nothing (I know,easy to say!)<P>Got any Valium at home?

Nope just drano

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by LostHusband:<BR><B>Nope just drano</B><HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>What the hell?<P>Ativan then?<P>

Either way I'm getting screwed not to mention the kids.<p>[This message has been edited by LostHusband (edited May 03, 2001).]

I truely hope you are not serious about the drano.<P>You've got my support here Bill. You are not alone.

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by Learning as I go:<BR><B>I truely hope you are not serious about the drano.<P>You've got my support here Bill. You are not alone.</B><HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>DARA, you know me better than that. Oh wait you don't know me. IT WAS A JOKE. GEEZ<P>

No Bill, dont file. If you must, use your att. to represent your rights. What the heck have been attempting all this time? <P>Give up this soon?<P>your a better man.

I talked to mom the only way to represent any of my rights is to file. Otherwise wait for her to do it and in the mean time she can do anything she wants.<P>Towell flying through air landing on mat. White flag waving.<P>[This message has been edited by LostHusband (edited May 03, 2001).]<p>[This message has been edited by LostHusband (edited May 03, 2001).]