I decided that I better see what is on the market out there that I might be able to afford. Saw about 10 houses. I felt weird and at the same time excited. I was thnking. My OWN house. Me and the kids. I am obviously downsizing big time. It is interesting how only 1 more body, H, makes a difference in the size of house I am looking at. Single mom and 3 kids vs Family of 5. <P>Anyway, the day is sunny and beautiful. I felt Okay. Really wanted to talk to someone though. No one home.<P>In the car, I was listening to Oldie (1980,s LOL) station, and a song came on radio. I forgot the artist but the main line is "Goodbye to you" "How could I have ever loved the one I see in you."" I forget all the words. But I was singing out "Goodbye to you" and it felt Powerful but slightly sad. <P>Not only does H destroy family, we have to move out of our home, leave "friends" etc all because "I'm not happy"<P>At this MOMENT, I feel like I'm done. I'm done with you. I can't wait to move on.<P>We will see what later on brings.<P>Peace,<BR>Hopelessmom<P>Hopelessmom