Huh I really dont understand it..i was divorced 2 days ago..and im still waiting for the emotions.<BR>I am not complaining by any means, just im wondering what is wrong with me. I am sad, just not that sad. I have more anxiety then anything. Like now that it is over, she will have full freedom with the OM.<BR>I dont know how to feel.<BR>I just want to cry but cant.<P>------------------<BR>Experience is what you get when you don't get what you want.

There is nothing wrong with you, BioMan. I felt much the same way as you do now. I was expecting SOMETHING the day my divorce became final, but there was nothing worth noting.<P>I was told then and can say now that the emotions, the feelings, the thoughts, the anxiety, the tears and the pain have not dissappeared completely. They tend to come in waves and thankfully, the lows aren't as intense as they once were.<P>It all just takes time.

Jayhawk is right I think, Bio. I hope you're not sitting alone on your back porch thinking, "Okaaaay...any minute now..." <P>What I try to do when I'm kinda emotionally constipated(that's a rarity), is I run like all get-out into the night air. I run as far as I can go, until my legs scream and my lungs burst. Ya know the best thing about running? Stopping. One of the greatest feelings in the world. You can feel energy just leaking from every pore as your heart hits your chest wall til rested. Well, that does it for me. I love the way the cool, damp night air feels through my hair and on my skin. I have hot flashes, so I love anything cool!<P>Turnin' the fan up,<BR>Nell

actually im not siting around waiting LOL <BR>I just really dont want it to hit me at a time i dont need it too.. <BR>I wish i had the endurance to run. I need to start working out again..<BR><P>------------------<BR>Experience is what you get when you don't get what you want.

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by Nell:<BR><B>You can feel energy just leaking from every pore as your heart hits your chest wall til rested. Well, that does it for me. I love the way the cool, damp night air feels through my hair and on my skin. I have hot flashes, so I love anything cool!<P>Turnin' the fan up,<BR>Nell</B><HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P><BR>Nell..that really doesnt sound like running LOL <BR>Sorry i could not resist.<BR><P>------------------<BR>Experience is what you get when you don't get what you want.

[voice of Mrs. Doubtfire] Oooooooh, you wicked, wicked man!<P>Double entendre Nell

Hey BioMan,<P>Get out their and walk if you can't run. Force yourself to do it, you will feel great. "In The Meantime" By: Iyanla Vanzant) may be helpful to you. Check it out!!!!!! I am famous for having what the call delayed reactions, it has hit me in a year of so latter. The mind is very powerful and can shut off for a while. The grieving process will countinue. Take care of you and motivate your self.Positve thinkng by; Norman Vincent Peale.<P>Best Regards<P>C

Yeah, it may come later... and it may come at an inconvenient time. But, that's the beauty of life - ride the highs and bear the lows. <P>So, I to concur that Nell's experience with running is definitely NOT something I've experienced... but I do agree that the best part of running is stopping. I'll have to pay more attention to every pore in my body and what it's telling me when I get off the treadmill. So, I do think you would greatly benefit from starting to work out. Those endorphins are awesome... they make the lows more tolerable and well, you know those high's they can get up there!<P>Glad to hear you're feeling well... count your blessings because a LOT of people hit the WALL emotionally... you sound like you've coped with a lot along the way.<P>Cheers!<P>------------------<BR>We cannot do everything at once... but we can do something at once